confused's Journal

Feb 2007
5:34 PM EDT

oh my god! today has been crazy!!...k wake up..whatever, my ride didnt stop at speedway so i didnt get my cappuccino, ridiculous, um get to school see my boyfriend, but then he has a field trip thing, so i didnt get to see him until after school, and it was cool, then he said some girl was hot, said i was ugly...whatever whatever though i know he was just kidding, or whatever it was still like a slap in the face. then his ex psycho girlfriend kept walking past us giving the meanest looks. she hates me with a deep fiery passion and i hate it be cause its like grow up!i honestly felt like crying. because then i looked at her and was like you know shes really skinny..really pretty...beautiful..k no not beautiful shes kind of icky...but like not ugly either...now me..im not fat by any means...i mean im not skinny..im 5'3..i have no clue how much i weigh if i were to guess i'd say...125...which im working on losing some weight...but w/e...im an athlete i run track..its my life...it runs in the family..always has..i plan on running in college...okay well of course all true sprinters have muscles...defined beautiful legs.mine are defined..and too big for my liking...my friend tells me im being stupid...that im not fat im not w/e...but she's my best friend..she has to tell me that...well then i come home...the computer is being shitty...virus's and such..and i have a research paper due..and an outline and notecards..all due tomorrow...oh my gosh! and my moms like oh no cant get on..im like MOM i HAVE to..and w/e..(obviously i got on right)... well my dad who is a major DICK almost all the time...was being one again..alright the only thing i eat at home is peanut butter sandwiches because i love peanut butter...well we have two jars in the cabinet..and yesterday my dad took one got a spoon and just began eating out of it!! YUCK!!!...and he's been sick too! breathing really loud through his mouth..so annoying...well then tonight he took the OTHER jar and began eating out of it...like just with a spoon! its sick! okay...well i go into the CP room and was like mom next time i need my own jar of peanut butter..my dad FREAKED..i walked into the kitchen he followed through the spoon at the sink..missed it went on the other side of the island thing..then he opened the cabinet and through the jar in..of course if you throw a jar as hard as you can..it wont stay in..it bounced out as well as some other things...okay my dad..is...6'2...240lbs...he played football back in the day..ran track..wrestled...i mean he's a sporty kinda guy and so obviously he has muscles and is big..and when he gets mad..its usually scary...any more im like fuck it! i dont even care! i just stare him down! but today i ignored him..came in the other room and cried...ughh its driving me nuts!! i blame it on Valentines day! because! it sucks and is making me sad!! i hate vday!! but i dont want to! i want to be happy...ha..we'll see..

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Username: confused

Gender / Age: Male, 35

Location: USA - Ohio