Cancermoonchild's Journal

I arrived back in Vista around 630ish. Stopped by the bank to deposit my winnings!! I put in $300 after i spend some money on some cute lingerie for the trip and long underwear. the lingerie is soooo cute.. its black with red hearts on the bra part. Its a sheer babydoll and it clips in the front, so excellent! I cannot wait to wear it for steven..

I changed my returning flight back home to the 21st. I'm goin to stay in south dakota for almost a week, am i crazy? I must really like this guy. I've never donethis before. It kinda makes me scared. I've never spent the week, let alone.. fly almost across the country.. for someone to be with someone. I was thinking about it, and i've seen him a whole 4 times!!! And i'm already getting on a plane .....

I did an add on case today. Seth was my resident. Told me i should come party with him again like we did on his birthday. haha.. good times. Maybe i'll bring out steven with me if he's partying downtown again.. that would be sweet.

And I actually have2 cases tomorrow. granted the timing is kinda fucked up but it gives me time to get some gyros at that greek chicken place that i like and i can stop by burlington coat factory to see if they have that one coat!

i havent been doing much with myself. Just been takin it easy. I finally get to do a case tomorrow.... its an easycase, and of course, its the first case of the day. lol good ol scheduing dept.

Things with Steven are good. I have plans to fly to South Dakota the weekend after Valentine's Day. I already bought my ticket, tho I might stay one more day andcome home on tuesday instead. More time with Steven.. yippee..

So the Dean of admissions called me to this office after i had just finished taking my midterm.... he had some bad news... i had to be unfortunately kicked out of the nursing program because of my failed drug test. He said he wishes he could bend the rules cuz he thinks its stupid, but rules are rules, and he's just the messenger... I cried while in his office, it was just so fucked up. I respect the rules, but i just think its bullshit. They should've warned me in admissions that they were gonna drug test on the first day of school instead of telling me that they were gonna test before going to clinicals. He gave me pretty good advice on things i could do. Take some community college classes to offset the price fo the program, which sounds like a good idea.

There are some positives to all this, if any.... I can still work for PRI full time at least until March.. I'm planning on taking a fast track math class... maybe a nutrition.. maybe a human development.. and maybe human anatomy and physiology class too..I'm keeping my options open.. i'm going to stop by my old schools to get official tran scripts of my records.... see what i can still do with them.. Ah.. aint nothing i can do but to suck it up and move on ......

So when i got to school.. i was sooo hoping that the results wouldn't have been there already. And they werent, but i turned in my slip.... now all i can do is wait... in agony. I dont even want to smoke, i'm so scared. So imma be stressing tomorrow.. i really hope no one comes to the classroom calling my name. We are supossed to get out of class early tomorrow.. so i'm crossing my fingers....

Steven called me to say hi in between his surgery and his meeting. Wanted to let me know he was thinking about me and that he misses me. Oh sooo sweet. He makes me so happy inside. He then called later on tonight. he said that he tried French Sangria tonight. He sounded a lil tipsy... he was being so cute. I love listening to him laugh... its so.. dorky yet so cute.

I actually woke up at almost 10 this morning; it felt really good. I really didnt know what i was going to do with myself. I ended up running errands- getting munchies and shower neccessities.

Steven called me while i was out. he didnt know if he'd be able to talk to me later because he was giving a talk. Said he was getting all dressed up and stuff. I bet he would look so handsome in a nice tailored suit. with his stylish armani glasses. mmmm very hot.

i ended up taking a nap when i got home and its just going to mess up me when i have to go to sleep. It's bad enough that i'm going to being all uppity cuz tomorrow is first day of school.

Talked to steven after dinner and he was being so cute. Things started to get a little hot..... i can't wait to see him. I want to feel his lips on mine.. feel his arms around me. it really sucks. he told me that he knew he wanted to be with me right when he saw me. Love at first sight!! he definitely felt the chemistry... i'm glad...

I had a pretty good day today. I was doing a lil shopping when Steven texted me for the freeway exit for the Carlsbad Outlet mall. I asked if i could join him and he said thats why he texted me. I really wanted to see him since I knew that he was going to be gone for a long time. He needed a new coat and some new shoes. We went to wilsons leather and he tried on some different jackets as i was the yay/nay sayer. He told me he appreciated that i was there helping him out. As we were looking at jackets, he asked me if there was one that i liked.. PSSSSHH.. like i was going to let him buy me a hundred dollar jacket. Granted, he could more than afford it, but damn, I can't do that.. not yet. I think it's too soon. We went shoe shopping and again, he offered to buy me a pair.. i said no and told me not to cry when i dont have any shoes. haha.. too cute.

I feel so good after i spend time with him. I feel so alive, so confident, so happy. It's just so crappy that he has to leave. But trying to look at the positives in everything, I did get to see him today. And i think we had a really good time. What he thinks, i dont know. But i do know that he likes me.

I am SOOO glad this day is finally over!!I didnt get home till almost 10pm and i've been awake since 430 this morning.But i dont have to wake up early tomorrow. WOO HOO...

my first case as Dr. Smoot went good. Two patients.. L cheek for one patient. undereys and perioral for the other patient. In and out done in an hour. I even got to leave the laser there- way easier for me!!

My case at sharp.. started late. i had issues with people i was asking to sterilize my laser fibers for a surgery that was is radiology and not in the main operating room. We had to wait for anethesia who was coming over from Childrens.

I got the best surprise!!! i was sitting in the middle room relaxing as the patient was being put to sleep and I saw steven's glasses thru the little window in the door. He came to see me!!!! He brought a diet pepsi and said that he wanted to say hi to Dr. Kaplan. LOL smoooooth operator. He was so cute. We were in the same room that we met in. So cute!!!

After my case... he met me at my laser truck. We sat inside the truck; he sat in the passenger and i sat on top of him. We kissed and kissed.. looked into eachother's eyes... talked. I was so happy to see him.. He took off his glasses and i was looking at him. The way the lights were coming into the truck, he was absolutely gorgeous. Just being there, in that momentmade me realize that i really do like him.

When i met him and the way he was acting in the case, i just knew that we would have good chemistry, reason why i even gave him my personal number in