well....he askedd me out :] yeah u think id be soo geeked concidering i thought i realli realli liked him...its not that i dont like him i just dont like him n skooll..i hate how he acts he acts like he dont even like me...but yet we hung out yesterday after skool and he acts like hes like in love wit me..i dont get it, i think hes just still so worried about wat people are gunan think of us & i dont knoe if i can handle him carring about wat they think, i mean skools almost out and im tryin to not brake up wit him or nothin cuz well hang out durrin the summa and itll be betta..soo we'll see....so yeah we hung out yestaday till like 9...:]] it waas great even tho it was cold as hell outsidee :[ he mett mi brothers, they loved himm i realli love beeing withh him UHHH i just wish hed act how he does outs skool in skooll>   sooo yeah mi phone got tooked !!!!!!! mom was beein soo gay, shes been flippen out soo much latelly i wishh shed stop shes drivin mee insain.....and she so focused on this stupid guy will....i hate that man!!!!i wish wed hurry up and move she sayss shes tryin but yeah wateve......thank god skoools out in 6 MORE DAYS !!!! then dance finally starts kannt waittt....plus i gotta get a summer job...but anywaise i realli hope me and walter last cuz im realli feelin him btu honestly deep down i think we are better just friends but thats not wat i wanttt.. idk guess ill give it sum time

well not much has realli happend..me and baby cakes got into this huge arguement last nite cuz hes afraid to go wit me cuz he dont wnt jasmine to get hurt...watever fuck tht  gurl i hatte her..and i wish wed go out n shed try to start shit, cuz id beat her ass...naw but antywaise he so needs to make up his mind cuz im tired of waittin...this boy devonte likes me and wants to go wit me but how can i go wit him wen im waitin onn walter....idkk part of me just wants to give up but then another part of me thinks ive waited way to long jsut to give up you knoee..im just soo confused>< omg and thenn i tell walter about devonte cuz he just wants to be mi bestfriend and all and of course he has to think negative and be like oh he prolley just wanna go wit u cuz of ur past ahd he prolley just wanna fuck and blah blah...i personally think hes the one stuck on mi past still becuz he the one always bringin it upp...mi past aint even that bad!!!! i just happend to talk to alot boys and play alota boys.. i mean if bois can do it why cant gurls (its dumb how if we do it tho it makes us look like a hoe) watervr thoo....im just bnout to be done wit erybody and keep to mi self next yearr evenn tho its gunna be sooooooo hard...i mean cum one now wats high skool wit out boys and partys and flirtinng..itll be boring as hell PLUS im a be dancer next year :]  ima be wilen out :] ya digg lol kayy well mi words is runnin loww.

wow...well where do i start...so theres this boy rite... hes suppose to be mi "bestfriend" but i fell 4 em, i knoe thats a nono..but hes so cute and so sweet and soo caring and loveable and i kan trust him with mi lyfe...idk wat to do,well he says he feels the same about me, but i dont see it< he says he dont knoe watd he do wit out me and blah blah but i think its all a lie i think he just wanted summ...which mi dumb ass gave it to emm..yeah we were hangin out and it just happened :[ it was the biggest mistake of mi lyfe...beleive me i regret it<i also regret the fact that i fell for him...ok well to make a long story shortt he started bak talking to his ex...yeah we hung out wit her yestaday....it hurt me tooo knoe that they were doing wat we were doing...like i wonder did he say the sweet things he said to me to her..did he grab her chin wen he wannted a kisss its just lil things that bother me,i dont wanna share himm...but then again i dont want himm..i dont knoe wat i want or wat i wanna doo/ do i move on or do i try to trust him agian???its so hard i gave up eryboy i ever liked 4 emm...maybe i should just do me and he kan do wat he watns...its crazy cuz i never thoughtd id love any one this much again...well since the whole melvin thinng..yeah that dumb boi hurt me but sum how i bounced bakk...part of me wants melvin bak even tho he talks about this dumb gurl hes with all the time..i still and always wiill love emm.but i dkk..

imm so confusedd :[