Simply Sally Silence In Death

Apr 2009
8:30 AM EDT

Life isn't fair it's how the world works. I didn't know what I'd do when everyone I cared for had abandoned me in my time of need. But I did realize that if they did that when I needed them the most they were never truly there for me in the first place. So friends I have became ones I had. The ones I care for became those who I no longer care for at all. They tossed me aside when I was fighting for myself inside. I was tearing myself up and they didn't care. So I'm glad they left they did no good for me.

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3 comment(s) - 06:54 AM - 05/24/2009

May 2007
10:16 PM EDT

The only true thing I'm really afraid of is loosing my boyfriend.That would be the worst thing that could happen to me.And of course my parents getting a divorce they often make me think that someday they'll get one and go their separate ways and there will be nothing I can do about it.But mainly I'd be afraid to loose my boyfriend also the love of my life.Infact my best friend my everything I love him with all my heart.As you can tell by reading my previous journals.

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May 2007
7:36 PM EDT

My finest moment ummm.....I think it's probably whenever I asked my boyfriend out.Because now I'm so madly in love with him and I couldn't imagine my life without him now.He's so amazing to me so sweet and kind and such a gentlemen the greatest guy I've ever met.At least as far as dating goes b/c no guy has ever treated me like he does until now.He treats me pratically like I'm a princess or something.He totally spoils me way to much I love every mintue of being with him.

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1 comment(s) - 09:40 PM - 05/06/2007

Jan 2007
12:38 PM EDT

"Love is not finding the perfect person, but finding the imperfect person perfect." – Unknown This is really true because I love my boyfriend more then the world.He's so amazing to me.In my eyes he truly is perfect even with the imperfections.But it's our imperfections which make life more interesting.I love him for him and everything that he is and how he is and his personality.The ability he has to make me smile when I feel like crying.The ability he has to make me laugh when I just feel like being sad and depressed.This is why I love him so much.I love him because he makes me want to be so much better he makes me strive for more in life.I love him because of who I am with him.I love him for every ounce of my heart that's been torn by some guy who turned out to be a liar and cheater or just plain false.

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Dec 2006
2:02 PM EDT

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference." - Serenity Prayer, Reinhold Niebuhr This I have often wondered about so many times.For the longest time I never understood it until I finally wished I could change something that I had no control over my future.I came to the realizition that all I can do is control my present and learn from what mistakes I may make now.Time will hopefully show me that I have made at least a few good choices here and there.I try to live on from day to day doing what I think is right.For the longest time I had walked in the dark forgetting to turn on the light.But finally I walked to God and turned on the light in my world.With a new great friend who was much like a sister to me I became the person I'd wanted to be for a long time.She has helped me through many situations and she has gotten me through a couple of the roughest relationships I've ever had.But most of all no matter what she's shown me what a real and true friend is.I thought I knew a good friend when I saw one but until becoming her best friend I hadn't really known the difference between a true friend and an ok friend.

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Dec 2006
4:28 PM EDT

Do I ever pretend to be something I'm not? If I do, why am I doing it? I think at one point or another everyone does this.They try to be something they're not.You don't always mean to but you do it anyways.This is usually because you want to fit in with someone,or you want to impress someone or you just don't want them to know how you feel.So you come across as a fake or phony sense of you.

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Nov 2006
8:06 PM EDT

"The worst thing you can try to do is cling to something that is gone, or to recreate it." - Johnette Napolitano I believe this a hundred percent.Especially in relationships clinging to something that just isn't there anymore is a bad thing.It can leave you more hurt then you really need to be.Never cling to things or try to recreate them always let them go whenever it's their time to die.Whether it be a relationship,a person,an animal,a feeling, or a memory.

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Nov 2006
5:33 PM EDT

"Answer your critics with silence and indifference. It works better, I assure you, than anger and argument. . . . " - Gioacchino Rossini I very much have to agree with this.If you just sit there silent they have nothing to say back to say to silence.Or if you just simply say ok and walk away.Or if you always make a positive come back to anything people say that works to.

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Nov 2006
2:29 PM EDT

What I expect from others is that they respect me like I respect them.I expect them not to tease me or joke meanly.I expect them to basically just be nice to me.

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Oct 2006
2:44 PM EDT

I would say I probably do seek the acceptance of others before myself.I don't think I'll ever accept myself therefore I look to others to accept me.Even though I have to accept myself before others will.

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Oct 2006
1:08 PM EDT

This I've been told many things that I give to others.I've been told that I can bring someone up make them see the happiest things in life.I've been told I can make people really see what I see.But then again I've also been told that I give nothing but pain and sorrow to others.What people gain from knowing me hmm well that's even tougher.I can say what I hope they gain.I hope they gain happier times,to know that they are loved by someone.I hope that they gain the truth in matters no matter what.

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Oct 2006
2:03 PM EDT

Farewell tore me apart time and time again. ripped me to shreds. just I stand here. watching you walk away. far beyond me, I can't see the light. cause it's gone out in my world. but don't worry. I'll be ok. I just have to say. That today's the day, I go crazy. Today's the day, I'm going to loose my mind. I'll loose control, and let the tears roll down. as they flood down, my cheeks, I'll say goodbye to you. I don't want to go. But I don't want to hurt. so this has to be, my last farewell. so farewell I love you still. so much that it hurts me. but it hurts me more staying here. standing here watching you. cause you keep walking, away from me. leaving me standing by myself. in the rain crying. I can not sleep at night. I just stay up, and cry but not anymore. this will be my final goodbye. I love you I've said. Now I must leave. But before I go. I want you to know. I'll never forget you. you're the one I'll, always remember inside of my heart. you'll stay forever. apart of me. by:Sally

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Oct 2006
6:01 PM EDT

Sisters Forever thought I was worthless, thought life would never be happy. but just when I was about, to throw in the towel. you came along and picked me up. you showed me joy and happiness. you showed me love and wonderful beauty. inside yourself you've shown me, everything I could possible need. so this is why I say to you, I love you. Sisters are forever and that means we're stuck, Like glue. So even if you try you can't, Get rid of me I promise. So love me or hate me. Here I'll stay forever. I'll be by your side, Every step of the way. Leading you to things you never thought before. Helping you along the way. Keeping you on track, Whenever you may loose your way. You showed me such caring, Like I've never known in my life. And so here we are. Sisters no matter what. Through thick and thin. The blood runs through us. Friends Until the End take my hand, hold it tight, and when your scared, squeeze it tight. I'll be there, for you no matter what, to pick you up. to make you laugh. to wipe your tears. to take away the glass. I'll be there for you, with a shoulder to lean on, whenever you cry. I'll be there for you. No questions asked why. I'll be your friend, Until the end. Stick together, and we can win it. Life is hard at times, But that's what, I'm here for. To see you through. Whatever You May, Go Through. So just remember, That I was a true friend, Cause I stuck by you, 'Til the end. Friends Forever friends forever true as can be, like sisters you and me. we've known each other only a short time. yet it feels like forever already. maybe it's because we're so alike. I dunno but you seem so amazing to me. I've only had guys care for me like you do. Never has a friend actually been, so open minded and happy for me no matter what. never has one of my friends related, to me as well as you seem to. like sisters we are two of a kind. we have our differences yet we're the same. isn't it amazing how two people, can become friends as quick as we did? well maybe not but we trust each other, like I've never been able to have a trust, with anyone else ever. I care for you, you care for me. If your sad then I'm sad. You cry I cry so on and so on. If you need a shoulder to lean on, or someone to pick you up when you fall, Then here I am for you always. You've become my best friend. You're awesome to the max. I am so glad that we met. I suppose it's the first time, anyone has ever expressed such a caring for me. Like a real family member. my influences here's a list of people living and non-living who've influenced my life someway and somehow. Alice- she is my bestest friend,my closest sister,and I don't know what I'd do without her.You've taught me sooo much already girl.I love you soooo much cus your my sissy for life.I love yah chick.You are such an amazing bright young girl.Don't let anyone ever tell you that you can't do what you put your mind to because I know that you can do whatever you want.I am so glad that we met and become friends because I wouldn't be the person I am now w/out you girl.You're an inspiration to me and one of the people I look forward to getting to talk to when I come home from school at the end of the day.I smile just cause I know I get to talk to you.I always have your back no matter what chick cause we're jus dat kewl lol.Keep it gangsta style lol.You're beautiful no matter what they say and words can't bring you down today. Rio-my best friend and twin sister.You're awesome and crazy.You are special in your own way as much as that sounds like a barney song you are.You're there when I need yah the most even if yah are a little wack sometimes.I still love yah chick.Cus we're twin sissy's for-eva Chick haha you're stuck with me for life.I'm glad you're in my life and I'm sorry if I don't always show that I care for yah.But I always have yah back no matter what even if we're mad at each other cus I loves yah bunches.Don't worry about the stupid people who make fun of you they are jus jealous cause they wish they were you.You are so amazingly beautiful in your own creative little ways and you have an amazing glow to you.Love be with you through your life. Darry-I am so glad that I had a chance to date you and be apart of who you are and your world.You are truly one of a kind and for that I will always look up to you.I know that you have my back no matter what cause we're that close and I have yours no matter what hands down no questions asked.If there comes a day where you are sad I'll be there to cheer yah up.You have been such an influence in my life both good and bad.You've taught me so many things in the three almost four years that we've known each other.You are awesome no matter what people say.I love the way that you don't care what people think of you because it shows that you are a really strong person.It's been such a joy to get to see you grow and change throughout the years.It's amazing what a great person you became.I'm really happy for you and Lauren I hope you two last for a while.I loves yah bunches dude you're awesome.Two thumbs wayyyy wayyyyy up.No matter what life always turns out better in the end and it gets better so if at any point it becomes unbearable just hold on a little longer things will get better. Brandon-He is my crazy christian cousin,but he's crazy for Christ so he's aight.I love him sooo much and he has influenced me soo much.Although we've had our disagreements throughout the years all the same I love him bunches.He has helped me out through many situations.W/out even knowing it but he's told me things about God or the bible.Or just talked things out with me and we've had decusions about it and stuffs.He is such an inspiration to me.With his wisdom and his insite of God.I look up to him because he to once was like I was about a year ago another normal cussing teen who had gotten into some bad influences but he changed all that around.He got a second chance he could have died but didn't because his mission in life wasn't over.I love him sooooo much he's awesome.Can I live, If you wanna be in my shoes then get in, you can talk the talk, but aint lived the life I live, so can I live, that's the question. Wolf Flames-She is an amazing person even though she doesn't think so.She draws awesome to.I've known her for about five years now and me and her are really close.I love the goofy crazy moments we have when we're hanging out it's always soo much fun.She's inspired me inspite of myself and my gloom to grow and change as a person.I've learned alot from her and I hope she's learned for me to.She's my sissy or sister.That means she's stuck with me forever haha.Anyways but she knows she loves me to so yeppers.That's mine and her word Yeppers.We're crazy but we are kewl like that.I don't know what I'd do without her.She's awesome!!!!!!!Mwah I'd die for her cus she's my sister.Blue men.I have a blue house and everything is blue for him and himself and he ain't got nobody to listen. Sincerely this is five of the people who have influenced me that I care about dearly.

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Oct 2006
5:56 PM EDT

Tears Fall my tears fall down like rain. the sky opened up the clouds, turned a dark black. and the rain poured down. onto me soaking me. but here I sit alone in the night. soaking wet but I don't care. because no one can tell, that I'm crying. they won't think to ask what's wrong. my heart feels like it's pierced, so deeply that nothing can cure it. so tonight I want to cry. I don't cry anymore. I'm so tired of this life. I've been alright for months now, But I don't know if I can keep it up, for much longer now. So here I am, So alone in this life. And there's nothing in the world, Anyone can do for me. I hate this so much. This feeling of being unloved. This feeling of being a failure. So the tears fall down from my eyes, Like rain pouring down. Soaking my face. my eyes have turned inked red now. Agree? if you think you are a pimp chances are you're not. if you think that you are so big and bad chances are, people I really laughing at you behind your back. I suppose some people never learn their lessons though. But they pay for it in the end. Don't hurt people who care about you, It might just be the one thing in your life that stays stable. If you are mean to those who have done nothing to you, Or mean to anyone for that matter you get it worse in the end. You might think oh nothing will ever happen bad to me, That's where your wrong. If you cheat on loved ones you'll be cheated on. If you hurt loved ones they'll hurt you one day. One day you'll find that one person you can't live without, You'll find out that it was all just one big lie. It'll hurt but in the end they'll have the last laugh. Or the other person who you hurt will. Because you hurt them and then karma got you back. No need to fight it karma always gets you in the end. Be a kind,nice giving, and generous person. The world will be a better place but it starts with you. Spread a little joy suck in and hold on to the meanness, That is dished back at you pretend that it's nothing. Be there for those who have no one. Be friend the friendless. What do you do? so what do you do, when the world's colors have faded to gray? what do you do when your world caves in. how do you react when, nothing ever goes your way. when everyone around turns their back on you, what do you do? when it feels like the sun, won't rise tomorrow, what do you do? sit and cry the day away. just to watch the red blood, flow. How Can I Live if I'm not suppose to be with you, why is my heart telling me that I am. Is this just all an illusion. Will I wake up one day and, Find out everything I lived was a lie. Will I be torn in two. Just like you. How will I be able to live, If you're not in my life. I can't imagine even one day, Of not being able to see you. Not being able to stare at you. But what hurts the most is, That you never seemed to want to get to close. I want to know everything about you. I want to know all your life's story. I don't want to miss one thing. I don't want to close my eyes. If I got to sleep next to you. I'm probably watch you all night long. I'd be wondering if it'd be, Like this with us forever. How can I live life like this, Forever and ever. I want to make it last. I want you to be mine and only mine. I Cry I cry in the rain so no one can tell. so when I lift my head, they only think it's, the rain on my face. unless they look. look deep into my eyes, and reach into my soul. not many can though. I'm a pretty hidden person. I can act as happy, As can be w/out really being it. It drives me crazy it drives me crazy that he doesn't even glance at me. it drives me crazy that to where for him, would be like waiting for rain, in the middle of a drought. pointless and useless. i hate how he makes me feel so horrible. but I love how when I'm with him, he makes me feel like I'm, on top of the world. but w/out him I feel as if I'm nothing. I suppose I am better off on my own. but it just hurts so much. and then to see my friend, with her boyfriend, getting to joke and play around with him. and it drives me more crazy, because it hurts to not have someone, to get to do that with. it drives me crazy that he doesn't feel the same. I don't Think and I don't think he knows just how much it hurts me to have to let him go.but I know if I continue down this path I'll end up right back where I started at and that'd be worse then before.he doesn't own my heart he is my heart.I'd die for him.sadly I can't say he do the same.and he probably doesn't know who I'm talking about ither.and I don't think he knows how much it breaks me to pieces everyday just to have to face him.Not to be close beside him pulled into his warmth.It drives me nuts not to be his but I can't show that to him.It'd be weakness in his eyes.

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Oct 2006
10:15 AM EDT

I admire my best friend the most Brooke.she is one of the most amazing people we get along awesome.We never have fights although I am quite like her we are both equally different.We have our own unique style that we like.

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About Me: I am simply me I do not aim to impress people.I find it pointless to do what others do.I go against everything that everyone else goes to.I hate people who think money is everything and find them quite arrogant and rather stupid.If you have never loved you have never really lived.I love philosophy and I love to write poetry.Although I am still quite young you'd be surprised how mature I am.I hate when people downsize because of your age and I tend to even do it myself.But I try my best not to although even the kids my age are so immature and ignorant at times it's rather annoying and they give other kids my age a bad name.My boyfriend is my life and my everything.If You asked me to choose between my boyfriend and my friends I'd say I'm sorry to my friends because I'd be picking him.No matter what he's really the only friend I'd ever need to live as hard as that is to believe although it's nice having other friends to and I know he'd never give up his friends but I do know he'd choose me over his friends.

Interests: poetry is my life,philosophy,music,oldies,hippies,weird things and I love my own unique style.

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