MsErin's Journal

Dec 2006
3:41 AM PST

Here I am, 6 weeks pregnant. Both my husband and I are ecstatic. This is my second pregnancy and I'm showing extremely early. I look to be about 4 months along already. We've decided to keep things under our hat until after Christmas. Here is where I'm having a problem. Originally, it was my idea not to tell anyone yet, but I had no idea I'd be showing so much. So, now I'm finding that I have nothing I can wear that covers my protruding bulge, I'm already living in my husbands sweatshirts. And here comes the season of Christmas parties and family get-togethers. Now I have to go to these things, completely exhausted, not having any fun, in a potato sack. I feel like I'm having to hide something I would like to be bragging about. This is wonderful news, I wanna share it with the world. And i don't like people thinking I've just turned into constable fun wrecker. Tonight, I have my husbands work Christmas party and my brothers birthday party. Normally, this would be one hell of a night, but instead I'm gonna be dragging my drunk husband out of a party and everyone is gonna think it's cuz I'm just no fun. My husband doesn't seem to understand how tired I am right now. I don't wanna be out, watching him drink til the early hours of the morning. Sigh. What i thought was going to be a most joyous time, has left me feeling isolated and misunderstood. All i want is some peace and quiet right now. My idea of the perfect night is no longer going to the bar, I want to go to bed at 9pm with a huge plate of fried chicken, lol. And if I am to go out, I would like to be able to explain to people that I'm worn out for legitimate reasons and I'm not just pissing on the parade when I decide to cut out at 10. Am I ever glad I found this journal.

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Username: MsErin

Gender / Age: Female, 44

Location: Canada