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21
Mar 2007
7:51 AM PDT
   

Me again...my parents think we're not gonna last cuz we met when we were 15.. and both of their first marriages were with someone they met before 18 and they were both treated dirty... so theyre scared my babys gonna treat me oh so wrong... but how would they know.. they dont feel what we feel, when im with him its like nothing else matters im focused souly on him my family gets mad... but i dont care... i need to love outside the family.. we are not hillbillies!
somedays i wonder though how long will we last... til he moves... while hes in arkansas, when he comes back.. or is there even an end atall? ppl say absence makes the heart fonder... but is it possible for it to tear it apart also? i really dont know these days... its wierd.. i need to show how much i love him...
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21
Mar 2007
7:20 AM PDT
   

today me and mike were supposed to meet up at MLK Park... i got pissed cuz my bro wanted to leave as soon as we got there but cometo find out an hour later he didnt go...like everyone says pay babck is a bitch.. ive done it to him before so i couldnt really get mad... i cried though.. i really feel like im not a good girlfriend... like im mean to him and he justtakes it... but honestly he doesnt seem to havea "sweet'bone in his body... like he never suprises me says sweet things as much as before i dunno if i should be worried or not.. and he puts track before me... a sport... and i put... nothing before him.. nothing i treat him like my king and i expect to be treated like a queen.. spoil me g** dammit! i have 4 months til the expecting days when he gonna be leaving which is17 saturdays... 27 days outta school 1 holiday and 1 birthday... so i have 56 oppurtunities to see him... imma take em all... carpe diem right? soo im live my days with him.. no matter what, who when or how.. i need to see him... to prove to everyone that
(1) imma good girlfirend
(2) that he cares and loves me
(3) that we are meant to be and nothing will stop us...
unless he cheats on, lies to, or keeps secrets from me....then i have no choice... i miss my baby boy...
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19
Mar 2007
11:58 PM PST
   

so my family is set on him leavin like they can not wait... ny nana was sayin that i should start lookin for a replacement now....a replacement like hes an empolyee or something.. no one knows that i plan on stayin with him when he moves and a year later as soon as he turns 18 he's comin back out here and we're gonna live together... but i havent told anyone that... not even my best friend priscilla.... its sad but i dont want to feel like im hiding things from the others ppl i love... cuz i love mike and ever time my mom says its a family event he cant come... i think soon he will be family and you couldnt stop him from coming.... he wantsto marry me i know we're only 17 (he's actually still 16til july 18th) but i feel like he is the one for me it sounds corny and stupid cuz if i heard it id laugh but its how i feel. only thing that could possibly hinder us from gettin to that point is my attitude... its terrible im basically a bitch. i havent really done it to him yet but when i do it could break us apart forever... or him liking another girl breakin my heart again... he gives me this feeling deep in my heart one i can not get rid of.. i dont want to. and right now i have a bad feelin that hes giving up on me... on us.. and hes gonna find someone closer someone at hes school on the track team with him... some skinny little hoe... ugh... my hand cramps whenmy hearts about to be crushed unknowingly... somedays iwonder if we're meant to be or if our earth bodies are reading into the heavens a little to much.. but heres the thing.. in the summer june 14 2006 he left all of a suddenjust gone i prayed for2 months and almost 3 weeks that hed come back.. then as soon as i gave up hope he messages me and says he comin back to daygo.... and ppl wonder yi truly believe we are meant to be...so the question of the daywere and are my prayers in fain?
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19
Mar 2007
4:42 AM PST
   

so i can not stop thinkin bout mike.. he's my boyfriend of almost 3 months but ive known him for 15 months and dated him a total of 6 months within that 15.. and in july hes moving away.. to arkansas.. i hate this.. i mean every time i fall for a gut he moves or leaves me for another girl is it me? or them? i have yet for figure that out.. and it sucks... cuz i honestly believe that we will be together for a while despite the fact he will be moving 23 hours away to malvern arkansas.... ugh.. he never says he'll try to stay... or i think we could runaway together not literally runway but just STAY together on the west coast.. instead of being soooo spaerd apart... i dunno how i am goin handle this he left once before and i cried all damn day... and only he could make me smile... and he promised to call, myspace msg me, and email me he did everything once!! no.. not happenin cuz hes mine now so i need him to call me everyday, myspace msg me alot, and email me when i dont answer or msg back.. i basically want him to be desperate for me

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