BRANDNEWME's Journal

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I REALLY LOVE THE MAN I'M WITH HE MEANS ALOT TO ME BUT WE ARE NOT THE SAME ANYMORE WE HAVE DRIFTED APART AND THE FIRE IS BURNING ON ITS LAST LOG I KNOW I MESSED UP OUR RELATIONSHIP FROM THE START BUT I CAN'T BEAT MYSELF UP ABOUT THAT IT WAS OVER A YEAR AGO NOW HERE I AM TRYING TO BE WITH A MAN AND WONEDERING AT THE SAME TIME DOES HE LOVE ME OR WILL HE TEAR MY HEART OUT. THE REASON FOR ME SAYING THIS IS BECAUSE WHEN I CHEATED HE CHEATED SO THERE WENT THE TRUST AND WE TRIED SEPARATEING BUT TADA HERE WE ARE AND NOW I'M BEYOND OF PUTTING STREETS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP AND STRIVEING TO GET BACK OUR SHINE HE HAS CHANGED AND ALL THE SIGNS ARE THERE FOR ME TO AT LEAST ASSUME HE'S CHEATING AND IF YOU HAVE BEEN CHEATED ON YOU KNOW WHAT SIGNS I'M TALKING ABOUT THE YES AND NO CONVERSATIONS,PUTTING THE PHONE ON SILENT OR HERE'S THEGOOD ONE NOT COMEING HOME HMM MAKES ME REALLY WONDER....