AcousticWinter's Journal
24
Nov 2006
9:09 PM EDT
Tears filled her eyes but she tried not to cry. 'I'm tired of my diary being the one who listens to me!' she thought to herself, tears streaming down her cheeks. 'I just want someone to say they love me and mean it. I can't seem to find that anywhere.' As she wrote in her diary tales of pain and hardship, she sniffled and rubbed her aching neck. "Why doesn't anyone care?" she asked herself, looking out the window. She told them when they found out about her cutting issue, "I can't just NOT hurt myself." She repeated this phrase to herself several times in her head. I can't just not hurt myself. If I try, I'll hurt myself subconsiously. As she wrote these words, her hands shook. She dropped her pen and turned on some loud music. "Dead!" by My Chemical Romance was the first song to play. She paid special attention to the lyrics. Picking up her pen again, she wrote the phrase: If your life won't wait then your heart can't take this hell. This is the first time in months that she actually considered suicide. She had just left her school and sure, everyone was sad about it but she didn't hear anything from anyone after she actually left. She still talks to them on Myspace and Yahoo but none of them mention missing her at all. She writes: It's nice to know that if you die, you won't impact many peoples lives. They wouldn't even notice she was was gone...
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