Ok I have a question or more like a theory of some sorts:

If someone REALLY wants to be your friend again would'nt they just pick up a phone and call you? OR better say your sry and tell it to your face? and not have a relative or someting do it for you???

If someone really wants to be your friend again would'nt they have been smart enought to hear the whole side of a "fight?" ? To hear what was really going on???

If someone really wanted to be your friend would'nt they have....

Theres alot of would've and could've thingy's out there. But my point is why do other people have to apologize for someone else when they are just as capable of doing it them selves??? 

Anyways tonight was AMAZING!! hahaha My horse Sonny ran really good we took 1st in poles, 1st in barrels and 1st in down and back. With only one DQ which is really good. Other than that I know some of you are out there thinking... Hey where is her poem?? Well Im working on one right know so yeah hopefully its not to bad...

Well Im TIRED so Im going to go and catch some zzz's before for I crash and hit the key board. Now that would leave a mark. hahaha ttyl

I want to talk about Family.  There are not very many people that I'm close to in my family. I AM close to my kids. (My daughter is 19 and my son is 13). I'm not real close to my dad. There's a wall there. My mom passed away when I was almost 12. When I "grew up". Aunts And Uncles didn't keep interest in me, nor my kids. My grandparents are now passed on, they DID keep in contact with me. My friends are more family than my actual family is. Recently, I went to my family reunion. My boyfriend accompanied me. I don't know of anyone who spoke to HIM. They barely spoke to me. Now bear in mind, that I have done nothing to cause a rift in the family relationship. They just seemed plain stuck-up.  Most of them have moved off, even live in other states, but I can't remember a time when one of them has called said that they were thinking of me.  I'm sure that some of them don't even know the names of my children. Now, I'm thinking, is this not sad? FAMILY!!! What is FAMILY??  I hope this never happens with me and my neices or nephews. WAIT a MINUTE.  I don't have ANY. I was born an ONLY child. So, I have a granddaughter and she is so cute. She is 15 months. And, I'm NOT married, so I don't have much of a FAMILY. My dad is divorced from my Step-Mom, but is dating her. Her kids, I don't wish to know. So, there is My Dad, Me, My daughter, Her Husband, their daughter, and my son. My boyfriend. Then there is my good friends Shaunta & David, Stephanie & Tony. They are the ones, who call. They wonder how and what I'm doing. They check up on me. They know my kids. My dad calls. Mostly lectures, but he does call. I call my daughter at least every other day. I make sure she's happy.  I know where my son is. I still tuck him in once in a while. I never fail to hug him goodnight and before he goes to school.  I LOVE them. That's my FAMILY.

Peace!!!!!!!

I'm sad for a few reasons.

Mandy & Scarlet left on Sunday and I'm missing them sooo much.

I got a call from cousin Michelle to tell me that Aunt Helen has suffered a massive heart attack and needed surgery. She's come through the surgery and will be in hospital for the next 1-2 wks., they're keeping her unconscience for now. They don't know how (or if) she's going to pull through this. I am very conflicted about going out there to see the family - conflicted and sad.

Then the husband decides to argue with me on Monday about something so stupid, so trivial and then during that arguement he took a verbel swipe at me and it felt just like I'd been kicked. The arguement stopped right then but the feeling that I'd been kicked is still hurting. What an idiot he is sometimes!

Maybe today will be better, I'll get used to Mandy being gone, Aunt Helen will improve and "stupid" will not seem so annoying.

My summer has been rather peacful as of late. Not to much has been going on. But I wonder... is this all it will be?

Peacfull; it a word that hold so much meaning to it.. but not everyone has come to terms with it. Yet they all have on different levels.

So I asked myself this question; What am I to do with my life??