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    PapaFoote  67, Male, Michigan, USA - 67 entries
18
May 2012
7:43 AM
   

Simple, yet Complex!

http://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/redistricting-moderates-out-of-congress/2012/05/17/gIQA4uu2WU_story.html?wpisrc=nl_opinions

Another Day,

This is "simple", yet "complex", "thinking" - something that each of us SHOULD start the day with, BUT mostly don't want to - because "we" don't have the time for this kind of "thought-thinking"!

-The Old Goat-
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    NoDeadenz  8, Male, New York, USA - 58 entries
18
May 2012
6:22 AM
   

im on one

most days I dont want to wake up, and deal with the bullsihit that will enuse. My kids dont respect me, my husband is absent and my job is getting on my one good nerve. For real I need an outlet for all the stuff that is going on. Dj doesnt want to go to education and smokes weed damn near all day. I dont get him, and Isaiah needs to  be gone. I just tolerate him. My life is out of control and no one gives a  fuck until i do somethng drastic. Tried to talk to the pastor but she is busy with her own life understandably so. Cant talk to john, he doesnt get me, and most of the time he is checked out. He believes Iam either stupid or naiive neither is the case. He constantly ask me about other men if there are any, but when I ask him pointed questions he hesitates or attempts to avoid the question. He is lying and I know it, he asserts that he isnt wearing his ring because  I dont wear one. yeah ok. but I have never worn one so that doesnt fly with me. It's never his fault that he hit me, cause according to him it wasnt that serious. Its not his fault that I had to get an order of protection either, its me and my kids fault that he is abusive all according to him. what the fuck did he think was going to happen? I see him at this point just someone stave off the  boredom. yeah we talk and fuck maybe once a week but thats about it. Nothing of substance  transpire btwn us, I mean nothing gets resolved, there is no plan for his returning home. Truthfully I dont believe he wants to be here, because then he would have to man up and be accountable. He enjoys running the streets, being irresponsible and broke. He isnt dependable at all. Iam reconsidering this situation this isnt a marriage its a situation.

 I am not saying he is totally at fault however at this stage Iam weighing my options. I see things and people I may possibly want to pursue. But first I have to deal with this. There are men out there who not only consider me beautiful and would love to take care of me and my kids. I have met such men. when I explain that Iam married but living single, they  want to know why I put up with this shit.
Not sure why I continue this charade. I need something he possibly cant give me after all he never has... I am tired now, what have I done in these past two years? Feel like I've wasted my time, my mom says often forget that nigga go on with your life. Perhaps she is right.

hmmm what am I doing ? what have I accomplished with him, nothing not a damn fucking thing. The sex is wack sometimes  I just fake it to please him. Wont be doing that anymore
  same ol' same ol', he says its because I dont want to try anything different. I do have hangups about sex but that aint it. Sexually I am not feeling him and havent in a long time. Whoever he is fucking  I hope she is happy cause he dont do much for me in the bedroom.
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    PapaFoote  67, Male, Michigan, USA - 67 entries
16
May 2012
6:05 PM
   

Spread The Power!

http://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/its-time-to-break-up-the-big-banks/2012/05/15/gIQApOEvQU_story.html?wpisrc=nl_opinions

Yes, and the only way that "power" can be handled around our Earth Planet, is to "spread" the "regular" folks "fairly", as well as the "leaders", so the "balance" stays on the "middle", where sane, thoughtful, thinking needs to be - otherwise, anarchy will come around again, and again, and again, without any "cycle" to be stopped!

-The Old Goat-
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    mikehughes32  44, Male, Canada - 4 entries
16
May 2012
11:57 AM
   

Overcoming Planetary Evil. By- Mike j Hughes

, There are countless forms of life teeming through out our cosmos. It would boggle our minds if we could so much as begin to understand..I wrote this short paper describing some of the most vile, depraved, and earthbound discarnate human beings,- and some lower forms of life we normally do not see, such as the filthy imps ,ghouls ,the demented fairies, as well as those upon the involutionary arch descending ever deep into the matter aspect of the planet.


Some of these soulless beings are thought forms energized by all that is worse, depraved and wicked in the lives of human beings who cannot shake themselves free from elemental lives and substance tainted with the evil accumulated over eons of time , . There are certain groups of these lower elementary beings who thrive and feed upon all sickly effluvia emanating from the male and female gonads, - the lower etheric astral ectoplasm having the stench of rotting genitalia.

The lower astral planes are populated with innumerable creeping things,- monsters ,misshapen, abortions of dead paths of evolutions, creatures not found fit to live upon the earth, and had long ago been cast off like excrement to places such as the 8 TH sphere and the `` planet of death`` to be grounded over and over within the confines of natures laboratory,- only to one day,- many Kalpas from now,- be used as elemental substance to form primitive bodies for a future humanity who`s tiny monads at this time are dwelling now within the most advanced members of the animal kingdom.

Many vicious non-human entities are feeding upon raw abnormal sexual energy like some kind of dirty filthy body lice. The Majority of people who are vibrating at these levels are not aware of the fact that they themselves are victims, and know not what the hell is going on with the toll that is being taxed on their bodies and minds by lower forms of evil abominations that have been with humanity ever since the influence of the Dark Brotherhood came to prey and foment their hatred upon the human species since the Atlantean root race when sexual forms of black magic of unbelievable horror reached a destructive climax that brought doom for the fourth root race.

The lower astral planes are, at most, occupied with lower types of black magicians who reside within the most darkest places of hell, where the nightmare wailing, and the screaming never stops,- like a constant howling of lost souls who have failed to galvanize and cultivate a spiritual foundation. .Many know it not ,and are dragged down into the pit of lost souls where many eons pass. Their fate is a heavy one indeed . The way back for them will be hard and painful,yet the mercy of evolution will prompt them forward until they again are in the rhythmic of progress once again.

. I have devoted my life to help those on the other side who may not even have a clue as to the fact they have passed on and are no longer in a physical body but are now in their astral bodies doing much of the same activities they were doing while in the body.

The lower astral planes are filled with horrors untold and can be a very disturbing and shocki8ng experience to those who are un-prepared to confront the nightmare creeping death!!.One must be strong in their WILL before confronting the horrors of the lower astral planes.

I know of others like myself who have been involved with the same kind of esoteric work I`ve been doing now for many incarnations...and many have had to leave this sort of service for fear of slipping into insanity and mental illness as a result of visiting dark levels of the astral planes,... and with the good intentions of helping others in desperate need of release from their self created hell they themselves have constructed for themselves over many incarnations.

. There was a time I saw an old hag on the lower astral planes who was very sickly looking as she was chewing on a 50 pound rotting bowl tumor , ripping it apart with her teeth as some wild animal would if it were starving to death. I have as well seen people who were boiling in pits of rotting sewage , sour medical waste,- who seemed to be enjoying it.
This is the horrid nature of the lower astral hells ,a place of extreme mental , emotional suffering, and there is nothing to compare with this sort of hell that occultists know as Avitchi . .So we can see that their evolution is arrested for eons of time, as a punishment they have brought upon themselves. They will be the ``eaters of dung`` on the ``day be with us``,' only to have lost all hope for this planetary cycle and will have to pay a very heavy fate of karma when their day comes.

Just as any sewer system serves a purpose in every large city, - so does any system of worlds have operating within non sacred solar systems. Such as the likes of some very deeply evil men that have come into our world from time to time.

From time to time evil beings will sometimes manage to slip through the door where evil dwells , thus finding their way into our world to spread all that is unnatural and depraved. Such was the case of Adolf Hitler and the deeply evil men that stood behind him during those dark days of the World War . The evil men who have come to us down through the ages are now dwelling within the darkest spheres that exist through out the vast caves of cosmic evil that are to be found through out the cosmos, and there are times when the Door where Evil dwells is for some karmic reason is ajar, allowing unnatural monstrosities and evil forces to enter our world.

The Elder Brothers of Divine Compassion are sealing the door where evil dwells and are preparing the race of men for a new age now on the horizon. People of goodwill must come together upon the mental planes and begin galvanizing the creative aspect within themselves. .With the coming of many minds under the goal of sharing and right human relations we could really move mountains. We are powerful beings- as well as divine beings,- who have all eternity to work out our destiny as souls .

Some ego's will tread swiftly on the path while others will take longer to complete their journey through the earth evolution. As said before the so-called ``laggards`` will be held as failures of nature to be held over until a new world comes into being that is more suited to their point of evolution.As souls we have had so many incarnations going far back into the past through many root races, cultures,and civilizations, - having much wisdom and experience behind us all. We only need to tap into our ``Higher Self`` and get in touch with the Divine within us all .
As more people come under the influence of their own souls, the more we shall raise our vibration to the level where evil forces, in their many grades, can not reach us,, and thus be sealed off to their own domain while the human evolution can carry on its natural course of development without any more disturbances from any thing evil and unnatural caused by some serious problems during the many failures on the moon chain and elsewhere so many millions of years ago .

There are group of human beings who are very mediumistic and scattered all Throughout the world unaware of this fact.We have all heard of people who have gone on a killing spree and have committed acts of an evil nature,- and when the deeds are done the person who performed these gruesome acts have no recollection of how they could have committed such wicked deeds,- who have become so confused that they end up committing suicide because they can not live with themselves knowing they have become so passive in an unnatural and unhealthy way which gave way for some very evil acts that some kind of being is telling them to do, and are tormented life after life wondering why they have committed such unspeakable and evil acts.
Many who have mental illness`` claim to have urges to do things that are not apart of their nature,- and who are in need of help from a spiritual source of which science has no understanding.
. If you had etheric vision, and , you were down in some skid row area,or in the vicinity of some other unwholesome place,- you would know that these whole areas are infested with beings who resemble the gnomes, trolls,ghouls,demented fairies,wicked human shells,- and as well as the dirty and down right filthy brownies.

As evolution cycles onward we will reach a point with the ability to heighten our vibration to a level where we can not be influenced or manipulated by these low level and filthy astral entities. They will be sealed off to remain within their own domain.

 

There are billions of man bearing planets through out galactic space. Some are more advanced than we are,- and there are as well those at our level of development, and still others who are very savage and primitive.Our earth evolution is only beginning to climb out of the thick fogs of glamor, along with the astral illusions of our own making. We, as yet, have a long evolutionary journey ahead of us before being classes as a 'sacred planet' We are on our way,- and soon the Seven Paths of the ``Higher Evolution``will swing wide open for the ``Sons of Men`` who will then realize they are the ``Sons of God``
and to be Buddha`s ourselves, - Lords of Compassion for a class of human stock who's Monads are now encased and dormant within the most advanced domestic animals that have worked closely with humanity for thousands of years who respond to the mind of man, -thus a stone becomes a plant,and a plant an animal, and an animal, a man, and a man a God.

All that I can say is that we must be who we are and to not identify ourselves with any fleeting images that come and go, which is the great illusion itself.

.We must gain control and demonstrate mastery over our emotional-astral bodies before we can embark upon any kind of mind control.This is the way of safety and common sense. No man is an island unto himself. We all have an effect on each other no matter where we are in the world. We are all little cells within a greater body in whom we move ,live ,and have our being.Even our thoughts can have an effect on our health,weather,nature ,and even our very environment.Their are some ego's who have carried the secrets with them in regards to the 'words of power 'and the ``'know how`` 'in using these powers they have gained during the Atlantean root race. Most of them are initiates of the first and second degree and are very powerful on both the physical and astral-emotional planes.

There are highly advanced astral magicians, good and bad, who have resided on the various astral planes for countless thousands of years. They have become crystallized and will remain in that state for a very long time to come, until they can break themselves free from astral glamor and become mentally polarized . In time humanity will expand it`s awareness to levels of Divine Brotherhood. In the meantime we all must work together and put our differences aside and work towards co-operation ,trust, sharing, and develop the virtues of a happy World Community.

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    AppleOats  15, Female, California, USA - First entry!
16
May 2012
4:20 AM
   

Yay, finals are next week. I'm screwed. 


I NEED to pass math. I'm pathetic. Luckily there's a quiz tomorrow, which will probably bring my grade up.

And yeah woohoo; regular english next year.  I feel like I'm cheating with my honors credit I earned this year.  I got all Ds. All well.

Here's to a shitty freshman year. :D
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