Jay called.. said he was remember how great we were in bed together..
while he and i had amazing sex..
it was just that.. sex..
never had a fuck buddy without emotional ties before..
he was the first...
closed that chapter..
we would have made beautiful kids together though..
He looks at me careful not to show face, as he undresses me with his eyes. You lost one. He holds my face as he kisses my lips, the reflection of happiness in my eyes... as he catches a glimpse of him in my iris he shys away.. You lost one. He looks at me like chineese porcelean; beautiful and delicate. You lost one. Im strong like plexiglass; and Ill bend; fend; and mend anything for your @ss. He puts me on a shelf; though high and above the rest. If i wanted to be on display, a sign of his achievements.. along with an array of others.. Then we'd be "just friends".. but the kind that awake in the same bed together. You lost one. But you have me encased... The air between, two cm glass panes.. leaves me sick. The idea of sharing my space drives me insane. You lost one. See.. I have pride in myself. More than money contributes to my wealth... More than doctors to my good health. More than Crest to my smile.. If you could walk a mile in my Minolo's.. or 2 steps in my bo'bos.. youd know. Why i had to leave you. Why I had to go. You were playing checkers; and Im playing chess. I must confess; life is a game. Im playing to win. But the points dont matter until the end. You lost one... (me)
this is the place where i attempt to fill every void in my life.. ridicule.. and complain.. and occasionallywill be usedto spat on every unjustice in the world.. and to occasionally make fun of how normal people dress thier mentally retarded children any kind of way (ex.. pink shorts red shirt with yellow socks.. and the shirt is yellow and white polka dots.. ADD THICK GLASSES.. AND LAUGHTER.. and there you are!) and expect people not to laugh at them.. WE are.. so get used to it!
Im a realist to say the least... no rose colored glasses here.. and i am a hedonist.. yea.. i said it! Some of you may call me a heathen with my opposing views on life.. if so.. fuck off.. its my world bastards!
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