It's a new year so I decided that I would start writing my thoughts down. Hopefully it will help me heal this broken heart of mine, if nothing else, to see my life and
situation in a concrete form. Maybe it will be easier for me to analyze my situation seeing it in writing. I've always wanted to keep a journal but I am so scatter brained that it's hard for me to
collect my thoughts and keep them long enough to put them down on paper. It's all so overwhelming to me.
I'm reading this book now call the Sorcer's Crossing and in it the author speaks of recapitalization (going through every event, feeling you've ever experienced in your life
and with your breath you release it's hold on you and gain back that energy that was taken during these events.It takes me months sometimes years to read a book. Like writing, reading books takes
forever for me due to my lack of focus and scattered energy. I wish it were not that way as I really do enjoy reading.
I would love to be a writer but I just don't have that talent. Not right now anyway. My mother was a writer and my husband writes and so does my 8 year old daughter. I do have
a knack with poetry though but I haven't had any poetry come to me in quite some time.
Some things that I write may be embarrassing moments that I remember and other things may be embarassing fears or a confused outlook on things. I was thinking of making this
journal private but I feel that I can gain so much more insight into myself and what's actually going on if I share it with you and maybe get some feedback.
Alot that I write will more than likely focus around my relationship with my husband and my relationship with my daughter. Also I will probably mention my aunt whom I'm very
close to and a few other people in my life. Also, my religious feelings, past, present and future will send alot of your heads reeling.
So let me just say welcome to the Diary of a Confused Soul.