Hey all you Journalheads out there!

It is now 2:10 am in Burien Washington and i'm totally bored.... so after the whole episode with my mom, everything turned out a lot better than i hoped. she woke all excited and wanted to go the mall... thats about the greatest reaction to tears i have ever seen lol... although, i still feel guilty for it

Well thats the good news. the bad news is i feel like crap. theres those times where girls feel ugly, fat, and their self confidence just goes down the toilet. I dont know if its that time of the month (excuse me boys) and i dont know if every girl feels like that every now and then but thats the way i feel.

Now i've been spending the week with my nieces Jenina and Jazzy. they're my cousins kids who were taken from him and his wife for certain reasons that i dont like to talk about much. but lets just say theyve never had a stable home. I just love having them over though. theyre amazed at almost everything our family does. It almost makes me feel a little too fortunate. i wish we could adopt them. but im not sure thats ever coming true.

I've also been thinking about my ex a lot more than i should or like to. i just want to smack him out of my head if it were possible. but if i wasnt mistaken, hes thinking about me too. i actually hope it tortures him! well... never mind. i should never wish for pain on someone. well anyway.... it is now 2:20 and i think i should head to bed.... good night everyone... and God Bless