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Saturday - Dec. 9, 2006 - 7:30 PM - EDT - #3

why i have forgotten all about this jounral! but hey what can i say? i am now 17 years old! my relationship with God is still in the rocks and i am really going through a tough patch right now which sucks but i hope to God to be back on my feet really soon. i haven't gone to church in awhile. i know i need to start heading back to church and that i can't keep delying. it';s just that's so many things have been going on it's crazy. i have been journal hopping so many times that i have forgotten about this but now i can write in this everyday again-which is cool. what am i afraid of? losing somebody I know and being a failure. I feel like i let people down constantly and this world is full of so many horrible things that i am afraid of waht horrible things may happen. i know i'm supposed to have fait. i am also afraid of success because with success comes responsiblitty. so what else has happened in the past few months? well i'm in the second semester of my junior year and it hasn't been going has smootly mostly cause of my stubborness and refusal to turn to God, so many things in my heart and on my mind that need to be dealt with and that sucks. i just realized that my punlic journal entries really say nothing about myself. well, like i ahve said before i am a 17 year old christian who is in her junior year at a private school. i became a christian at 13 years old after struggling with suicide and anger. unfortuantly one thing that did not go away when i became a christianity was my fascination with porn and over the last year - two years it has gotten worse, especially since i got the interent. I am suffering one again with depression and suicide and also with masturbation-which sucks, but i either go forward or die. i am so behind in homework and insecruity is taken over my life-but that's why i want to have a journal-to help me get through tough momemnts like this-with the help of God.

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Tuesday - Sep. 12, 2006 - 11:55 PM - EDT - #2

"God will help us when we cannot walk, and he will us when we find it hard 2 walk. but he cannot help us if we will not walk." -George Macdonald

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Sunday - Sep. 10, 2006 - 6:56 PM - EDT - #1

Psalm 42 For the choir director: A psalm of the descendants of Korah. 1 As the deer pants for streams of water, so I long for you, O God. 2 I thirst for God, the living God. When can I come and stand before him? 3 Day and night, I have only tears for food, while my enemies continually taunt me, saying, "Where is this God of yours?" 4 My heart is breaking as I remember how it used to be: I walked among the crowds of worshipers, leading a great procession to the house of God, singing for joy and giving thanks-- it was the sound of a great celebration! 5 Why am I discouraged? Why so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again-- my Savior and 6my God! Now I am deeply discouraged, but I will remember your kindness-- from Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan, from the land of Mount Mizar. 7 I hear the tumult of the raging seas as your waves and surging tides sweep over me. 8 Through each day the LORD pours his unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing his songs, praying to God who gives me life. 9 "O God my rock," I cry, "Why have you forsaken me? Why must I wander in darkness, oppressed by my enemies?" 10 Their taunts pierce me like a fatal wound. They scoff, "Where is this God of yours?" 11 Why am I discouraged? Why so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again-- my Savior and my God!

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Username: theominai
Gender / Age: Female, 19
Location: USA - Pennsylvania

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About Me:

i am a 17 year old christian who attends a private school and who right now is trying to figure out somethings in her life.

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The passion of the christ, selena, titantic

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law and order: SVU, law and order: Criminal intent, hannah montanna, that's so raven, family guy