sandramarie1963's Journal

 
    
26
Oct 2010
9:03 AM CST
   

tonight

going to go have a drink with Brian..still talking to Bobby tho
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
23
Oct 2010
10:17 AM CST
   

Bobby

talking to a guy that i met on yb..he's in the Army..in Iraq...god i hope he's for real..we shall see
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
20
Oct 2010
9:06 AM CST
   

ugh

talked to Wayne today on Yahoo...god she's so worried about this yearbook shit and people talking about me..i don't care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
17
Oct 2010
9:21 AM CST
   

still

trying to reach out to Jimmy but he's not responding. About to give up.
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
14
Oct 2010
9:04 AM CST
   

THINGS NOT GOOD

JIMMY AND I HAVE BROKEN UP...SAD BUT THINGS JUST NEVER CHANGE
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
08
Oct 2010
9:02 AM CST
   

insomnia

is kicking me in the butt...haven't slept in days..but finally did a little bit last night and today.
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
03
Oct 2010
9:01 AM CST
   

the weekend

with my baby was fabulous!!! sorry to see him leave again..don't know when i will see him again
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
02
Oct 2010
4:52 PM CST
   

can't wait!

Jimmy is coming home for the weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
01
Oct 2010
9:04 AM CST
   

can't wait!

Jimmy is coming home for the weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
30
Sep 2010
10:30 AM CST
   

feel crappy today

so i don't feel like writing much..but everything is ok with Jimmy
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
29
Sep 2010
5:18 PM CST
   

Aching Back

Festival went well yesterday until it started raining. My back is killing me today from hauling soft drinks. But all in all it went well. Today I'm just resting and doing a little laundry. Just put a cornish hen in the oven for dinner.
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
29
Sep 2010
4:59 PM CST
   

and i thought things would be different

boy was i wrong...Jimmy is still pushing me away when things aren't going well for him. I know I can't change him but I can change the way I react to it. I just told him I was going to back off and give him his space..otherwise I'd go crazy and cause a break up if I kept nagging him. Guess that's what he wanted because he didn't reply to my text when I told him that..or it just pissed him off..who knows??
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
29
Sep 2010
9:04 AM CST
   

still no word

from Jimmy...guess he'll come around when he's ready but I'm not waiting for too long. And he wants me to go on the road with him! Don't think so! I'm not going to put up with his silent treatment for days while being in that truck with him..there's no friggin' way!
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
28
Sep 2010
9:11 AM CST
   

and i thought things would be different

boy was i wrong...Jimmy is still pushing me away when things aren't going well for him. I know I can't change him but I can change the way I react to it. I just told him I was going to back off and give him his space..otherwise I'd go crazy and cause a break up if I kept nagging him. Guess that's what he wanted because he didn't reply to my text when I told him that..or it just pissed him off..who knows??
 Add comment
1 comment(s) - 09:44 PM - 09/28/2010
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
26
Sep 2010
9:07 AM CST
   

Aching Back

Festival went well yesterday until it started raining. My back is killing me today from hauling soft drinks. But all in all it went well. Today I'm just resting and doing a little laundry. Just put a cornish hen in the oven for dinner.
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
25
Sep 2010
4:37 PM CST
   

Friday, Sept 24, 2010

Pretty uneventful day..although almost had some great news from Jimmy. He thought he might be in N.O. on Sunday but that didn't pan out. Oh well, was gonna take the day to rest and clean the house some anyway. Maybe see my dad. Festival is tomorrow so I'll be working all day.
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
23
Sep 2010
11:40 AM CST
   

he blew my mind today

Jimmy asked me if I wanted to go to driving school and team partner with him today! So many things to consider..lots of pros and cons. IF it happens it won't happen anytime soon. It would be great to be with him everyday but I'd be givin up so much.
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )



    
22
Sep 2010
10:55 AM CST
   

time to catch up

I had started a journal on my computer but it's hard for me to keep up with it that way. So i found this website and like how it sends me an email every day to remind me to journal. So, to continue from that journal.... Wayne did come back after I found him in a hotel in Hammond the day after he tried to kill himself. I went there and told him I wanted him to come back home with me. He asked me over and over again was I sure I could handle all this and i said yes. So he came home with me. Well, a week later I was so anxious and distaught over it all I asked him to leave again. I wasn't sleeping or eating and so worried about what my family would think about him stayin with me. Especially Dad...I couldn't even talk to anyone about it..I had to hide the fact that he was at my house..so not having anyone to talk to about it didn't help matters either. I felt horrible about asking him to leave again but I was getting depressed too. I felt so much guilt and shame for about 3 weeks after he left. I wasn't sleeping at all. When I finally started feeling better about things..Jimmy pops up on Yahoo., wanting to get back together. I wanted to spend some time on my own to get over all the pain and guilt of Wayne. But Jimmy is on the road driving a truck and I won't see him for a few more weeks. Jimmy got me smiling and laughing again. I do still have feelings for him...and he still has feelings for me. He wants to move to Florida..wants to build a house there...I would like that but I can't til Shelby doesn't need health insurance anymore. I guess Brian could take it over but getting him to do that would be a miracle. Work is still the same..I'm so bored. But I know giving up my retirement would be stupid. So I guess I'll just stick it out til I can't stand it anymore.
 Add comment
Add Comment:

Add Tags:
To add multiple tags, please separate them with comma ( , )





sandramarie1963's Profile

  • Username: sandramarie1963
  • Gender / Age: Female, 49
  • Location: USA - Louisiana
    •  
     
     
    SANDRAMARIE1963's Interests:

    About Me: i'm 47, single mom to beautiful, smart 18 yr daughter who just started college this fall. I live in Houma, LA and work for state gov't.

    Interests: reading, some arts & crafts, movies

    Favorite Music: anything but rap

    Favorite Movies: Pretty Woman, Walk the Line, Iron Man 1 & 2

    Favorite Television: i don't watch TV

    Favorite Books: anything by Nora Roberts, Danielle Steele, James Patterson, Nicholas Sparks, Jude Devereaux