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Thursday - Mar. 13, 2008 - 2:49 AM - EDT - #37

Hey just wanted to say our first friendly date didn’t end up happening, we did have a minor argument, but it all good, we made up. Its our 12th week since we first met, and this are like up and down, there are times when she’s interested and there are time she is just not in the mood to talk. But the times where she is into the conversation its amazing its like am moment, and I feel it inside me that she likes me.

But she did tell me she is starting to like me like 2 weeks ago, so I don’t know if the situation is still the same or got better. But i am doing my best, I can say that if I take my sweet time with Nevena, we will become more than friends.

We were suppose to chill this Monday which was changed from Saturday due to bad weather, and the fact that she was busy. So yea Monday was cancelled, 3rd time this happened. Well she said she is still coming thrusday to Sheridan with me. But I am sure she’s going to cancel like she did the last 3 times.

My mom got a flat tire on the silver van, and I am hoping my dad still lets me take the red 1 to college. So its easier for me to take Nevena to Sheridan. I am kind of hoping that her best friend Linda dosent come so me & Nevena can spend some quality time together withough linda or any1 else bothering us.

I don’t know why for some reason, there are times where she likes me, and there are times where shes not sure. I don’t know what I am doing wrong but I would love it if me and her can work it out. She said to me “I just wanna take things really slow, so I know forsure that I feel the same way... I don't wanna just, go out and then realize I don't feel the same way.. I just wanna take things slow and be friends for now.” i can wait, the slower we go the better it is for us, i respect her decision and support it. But if she can give me a sign, once I na while to hang in there I be happy. I just don’t wanna end up in a situation where I wait for her for like year or 2 then, in the end I don’t get her or it dosent work out. Now I really like her, and wanna work things out, but I guess I gotta wait…

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Thursday - Feb. 21, 2008 - 10:01 PM - PST - #36

well i can safely say things between me and stephanie (girl i liked) are over, casue i am starting to like, Nevena, she really is a kool person, i love the way how when she's bored in class with nothing to do so she msg me and wakes me up in the morning. i often do feel like i am doing all the work cummunicating with her first, but it could be her test maybe, or maybe she is just to shy, or maybe not interested. although she took a a while to reply to my msg on msn. maybe she was just too busy. we had fun in checkers, i forgot to metion i lost in mindsweeper, but i wont in checkers. You know what the good thing is talking to her really got my self confidence up. she made me realized, that, even though i am not that good looking, she still think i am cute for her. and i love that fact about her. she proved to me "if dosent matter how ugly you are you will always be beautiful in some1's eye's" oh here is a good part, i kind of got a friendly date with her. so i am probally gonna take her coffe. .::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says: speaking of vacation where would u like to go, if we have free time to chill иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says: Lol um doesn't matter lol .. anything you had in mind? .::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says: well i was thinking something where we can talk more and get to know each other, like a dinner, coffee, but i dont want it to be something big like a date unless if u want it to be a date lol иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says: yee... lol... um too soon for a date.. lol.. but yeah .. that sounds good lol...not something big..something like timmies I guess. .::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says: sounds kool, i just gotta check my work schedule and check with my dad when i can get the van, I am hoping this friendlly date goes well, and i am hoping she endups liking me, she really is my type of girl, and i would love to have a girl like her in my life.

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Thursday - Feb. 21, 2008 - 4:47 AM - MST - #35

hey what up, well week 6 i decided to to talk to her and get her email. we have been talking for about 4 days on msn now and i love it. usually i have to start the conversation first, but meh. the fun part of the conversation is checkers, cause we can totally fool around. i wont lie, but yea i would totally love to go out with her, but there is one thing getting in the way, its her bf zishan, i am not like those guys who steal. but i think she might be brraking up with him, casue long distance totoally dosent work for her. totally i was talkingto my annoying neighbor andrew, he told me she likes me.

so we talked on msn tonight, she told me she talked to andrew,

иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says:

hah I was talking to Andrew today when we were going to the portibles for the announcements and then we were walking and hes like so do you go to Fortinos? and I'm like yeaaah.. and then he's like you talk to those staff members there? why? and I was like Lol whats wrong with talking to other people.. and then he told me that he knows you and I'm like aha yeaah.. soo whats wrong with him lol? and then he's like hes like double your age! I was like not even whatevz, hes cute lol.. and then he just gave me a look like "Wtf" and then went inside lol

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

haha

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

yea he told me me u told told him you like me

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

i was like yea i would consider going out with her, becasue seems to be exaclly my type of girl, but she is taken,

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

and i cant break another couple up, just becasue i want to be wit that girl. i am not like that

иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says:

aww lol yeah I know what you mean.. but long distance clearly isn't working out for me anyways so I think it'll be over soon.. cause its realllly not working for me at all.

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

so is andrew telling the truth about u liking me?

иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says:

Lol I think you're really cute and all but I haven't talked to you long enough to say I really do like you yet lol

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

me either, which is why i keeep on bugging u, lol, but i hope this dosent crrep u out, or screw up our friendship, i would love to talk to you more get to know u better, before anything serious

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

brb hun

иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says:

Lmao aw you're not bugging me and it doesn't creep me out lol . yeah I wanna talk to you more as well. ... Kay.

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

lol i like that

иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says:

Lol

another thing i asked her

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

hey i got a week off next week, and i got nothing to do, maybe if you have a night off, maybe we can chill together?

иєvєиa ; xo BmZzZz ; <3 says:

yeah, sure .. sounds good.

.::"|Sameer Khan|"::. says:

kool

currently steph (best friend) said to me that i have asked her out and she said yess. i was going for a friendly chill, but if a date, its better lol. i might have to talk to her about this, lol... i am kind of hoping, she does fall for me, i am just gonna give it my time. dont wanna rush into things.

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Sunday - Feb. 17, 2008 - 1:14 AM - EDT - #34

Well today I really had a bad day, I mean I was out of it, I was just slow during work, paul almost hit me in the mouth with the forklift, then after work, I was heading upstairs to get my juice and head home, and I ran into steph, and me and her had a nice talk on the couch she sat so close to me. & if felt like she was my gf, although I wished she as my gf was real. The moment was perfect and I told her about the roses situation and she gave me a hug but I accidentally got into her arms, like I was lying on her.

she made my day happier then again I went from happy to upset/angry again, my stupid keys wernt working on the ignition, in them inivan. Then when I got home my mom snapped. So it really wasnâ€™t a good day for me.

The situation with the stalker girl is pretty good, overall all all the constant stalking has been going on for about 5 weeks, will be 6th tommrow if she comes, I did a morning shift today so I think she didnâ€™t come todayâ€¦ last week I got to talk to her a lil and she was turning red while I talked to her, and the next day on a monday she was in the produce dept, looking for me again, maybe she does like me. She really does seem like a kool person. I would love to be friends with her.

Valentines day was pretty good I got steph a white rose, she couldnâ€™t stop hugging me, I just donâ€™t know what she wants, did I fall for the wrong person again? Maybe she will realize the truth, and accept me as more than a friend, for some reason Heidi doesnâ€™t like other girls coming after me, & she especially dosent like steph.

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Tuesday - Jan. 22, 2008 - 1:30 AM - EDT - #33

Hey srry I know its been a long while, sorry busy with college. Well to start thing off, I have a stalker, she has been stalking me for 3 weeks, like always looks at me. She has been doing it for the last 2 Saturdays, like it wasn't that scary compare to this Saturday, she clearly made it obvious. Maybe she thinks I am cute. Oh well. I am still in love with steph, man I didn't know moving on would be this hard. Like I asked her out, I got rejected, I asked her if she wants to chill, u know just 2 friends hang out. Nope rejected, I was talking to jobin today, and he said majority of her guy friends want her more than a friend. Well I kind of find that true, and he said she has all of us on a leash, and it got me what if was right? My eyes are all teary, thinking about it, cause it might be true casue she is pretty, and has a great personality. Well I just don't know what to do anymore.

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Sunday - Jan. 13, 2008 - 3:46 AM - EDT - #32

Well this are okay, got back into college, this new course is better than the old 1, but the thing I hate is I don't get a summer, so I am stuck in canada while my whole family gets to go to Pakistan. Oh well its education that's all that matters, and if I go back home, then my aunt's are gonna be bugging me for that marriage proposal, but they don't know that I like someone else, some1 who I am having a hard time to get, even though I have been rejected by her, my heart keeps on telling me to go for one more shot. i don' know what will happen between me and steph, I am just going to leave it. Maybe she might later on realize the feelings I have for her and give me a chance.you know what I need? I need a dog some1 to keep me company and keep my mind off love. oh BTY this is what Steph looks like: http://files.filefront.com/n515610316+17
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Saturday - Dec. 29, 2007 - 10:38 PM - EDT - #31

well things have been okay since i asked steph out, maybe it really
wasnt meant to be. like our conversations on facebook are not that long
anymore. me and her had a conversation after i got rejected, i asked her
"how are thing between her and her bf?she was like idk with her
confused/wiered face expression. i was like u have to call him and ask
him where u guys stand at, because what if u guys are at a different
level, meaning he might not have that much feelings for u sincehe is
used to life without u" she was like i called him and yelled at him, to
call me more often, he was like i will call and he never did. and she
said maybe he's bored of me. well what can i do? i tried, i gave her
advice now it her choice, to put it to good use or just continue getting
treated like dirt.

Couple of weeks later i send her an email telling her Hey Steph, after
the party, i couldnt stop thinking about you, & i think ur truly someone
special, which is why i just wanted to say that I Like You. I hope this
dosent affect our friendship, well i g2g, have work at 6am thats right
Sameer sleeping in early, talk to u later bye :) and she replies "yes
the party was fun. it reminded me of prom, same concepts. aw well thank
you. thats so nice!! :) no, shouldn't affect our friendship, youre
really nice guy and a great friend. well, have fun at work." like she
didnt say if i got rejected or not. but from my perspective i think i
got rejected. like ever since the rejection i just lost those feelings
like i still have them but not as much, i think that reply made me
realize that she wasnt into me like i was into her. oh well what can u
do, there are time life is not fair. What matters is i took the risk and
told her i like her, now its her job, she can accpet me as sum1 special
or she can continue her life, and accept her loss later on. One Door Has
Closed, & Another door has opened.

Heidi msg me today she telling mw how her life is mierible that her bf
is treating her like shit. i told her what goes around comes around. Now
she knows, how much pain she has given to me. cant say i am happy, but i
am glad.

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Saturday - Dec. 8, 2007 - 11:09 AM - EDT - #30

hey, well i asked stephanie out, well i was like "hey u wanna so see a movie?" she was like, "idk i am really busy with my college exams, and my moddeling, i do have 2 days off, but i need to spend time with my family, so maybe some other time" i was like thats kool dont wrry, so then i asked her do you want my number, if u ever wanna talk on the phone? she had like a weired face, then she said "sure." so i =gave her my number, and "she was like u have myines right" i was like "yea." then i was like "the reason i didnt call u earlier is becasue i didnt wanted to creep u out" & i think i did end up creeping her out. so idk if our friendship will be the same, well see. maybe if she has second thoughts, she might give me a second chance. Or maybe she really was busy, she does have exams, she does have her modelling thing. but god knows. if there is one thing i hate is asking a girl out, casue i never got a yess, i always get "NO", "I'll Think About it", "Maybe Some Other Time". there is nothing i can do about it. i can wish i had the power to change freewill, and if i get it then, i will have luck on my side lol. You know how, when u like some 1 u keep on thinking about them, and u start to have mental images, of u being with that person, which makes u really happy, you know what the worst part is, when that mental images gets destroyed, and you can think of is what happend?, what i do wrong, even in some cases the person looses self confidence. you know what they say, "when 1 Door Closes, Another Door Opens!"

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Wednesday - Dec. 5, 2007 - 11:33 PM - EDT - #29

hey, well i never found the time to call i was just too scared, but this thing is killing me, like i really like and, she is just amazing, but i dont wanna get rejected where i have to face the fact its over, it wasnt meant to be. but on the other side i must know what will happen will steph take me or reject me. so this friday i will be tellking steph that i like her here is how i am thinking about doing it "Hey steph, i had a blast at the christmas party, and i love talking to u in person and facebook, but there is something u should u know. I Like You," i am not asking her to be my gf i want to let her know how i feel about her. i have been up all night think about whats gonna happen, like everytime i get that mental picuture seeing her reject me, it makes me feel really upset, like i know i am not good looking, i know i am not that good with girls, but i love to be in a position where its my time. who knows maybe she will consider me on friday.

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Monday - Nov. 26, 2007 - 9:19 PM - EDT - #28

hey on thrusday night, i asked stephnanie if she wants to go on break with me since me and her working the same shifts, she was like sure. the thing is i told her to pick me up since she gets told when to go on break. she was like okay. i figured she probally wont remember, and go on break on her own. so on friday i was hlaf way done the granny smith apples, and all the sudden i see this beautiful gergeous girl. and it was steph she actually came to pick me up, me and her went on break together. it was amazing, but the thing is she gets distracted very easily. like this other girl from mayfied came on break and they both kept going on and on about all the pranks pulled in their high school. even though she gets distracted very easily. i still love her. i just need to know who this bf of hers is. casue i know i will make a bettrer bf then him, she should realize it. well it is partly my fault becasue a real bf calls and its been almost 2 weeks since i called him, tommrow jared said he will help me me and him will call her together. but i will do the talking, he will make sure i dont do anything to creep her out, or do something stupid to rush into things. i will take my time with this 1. i know i can get her. its justthe matter of timing, and the situation.

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Thursday - Nov. 22, 2007 - 0:37 AM - EDT - #27

hey srry, its know its been too long, bust with school. well 1 month ago me and this git met, and she really did seem like a kool person, so i talked ot her, and turns out she really is a kool person. well just 2 weeks ago every1 started going crazy, they were all excieted about the fortinos christmas party, on nov 18th. every1 in my department had a date to go tiwht them, i was like i dont need a date. i can have fun on my own, i realize after heidi. its better just to stick it on my own. My neighbor 59 (single) still a virgin. and he is happy. if and 59yr virgin is enjoying his life, than why should i be worried, we live in a place where you have to fight ur own battles in order to survive. i can do it. well back to the story. so i didnt worry. about any date. but last sunday nov 10. i asked her if she wants to go to the party with me. and she was like idk, i figure its a rejection. so i was like its kool dont wrry, then after on wednesday morning i was on facebook and got a wall post from her. she asked if i am still going? i was like yea i am still going. but somehow i felt like she was giving me a hint to ask her to the party. and i did "for sunday maybe we can go together if its kool with u and ur bf, if not its no problem. i will be driving there since i am not drinking so if u need a ride let me know and i be glad to drive u there, about the clothes. just wear like a formal wear. i am waering my old suit from grad 2 years ago which is stil in brand new condition. which reminds me, i should check if its fits me. thanks 4 remindsing me lol." i said. and she said "Sure we can go together, it's fine. lol I wouldn't be a lonner either. " than on thrusday, jack and nature boy started giving me lecture, how i need to step it up and get a girl, like i know i am not that great looking compare to other guys, and i do have a hard time getting a girls atttention on me. but hey every1 is different. so i just told them, i dont need a gf i am fine on my own. if she comes, she comes, if not then no biggie. becasue i know she will someday. they were like what ever. so on sunday i picked her up and we went to the party, and mygod so many people told me she was pretty, and she really is. but i dont care about her looks. i care about her personality. we got to know each other better, me and her danced the night away, then after on the ride home was another amazing adventure, we went for pizza, sang songs on the ride home, got to see sum1 get arrested lol, i showed her my house, we didnt get home till 1:30am. Now she proved to me that she is good enough for me, and i am start to fall for this girl. every day i wait for her email or wall post. i am always thinking about her even as i write this. I havent gotten any good sleep, casue she comes in my mind. the only things thats getting in our way is her current bf, she dosent know if they are still together or not. but to me i say shes single, i know how much i want her, but i will wait.

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Monday - Sep. 3, 2007 - 9:34 PM - EDT - #26

well hey, i broke up with heidi. ye, it wasnt meant to be. She just wasnt totally honest with me. she told her friends that i am such a girl, that i am too clingy, and she cant wait till she finds a date for her homecoming dance, so she can dump me and get it over with. I know i am not a perfect guy, but she could have told me. i offered her a better life, i offered her a good future, i offered her true happiness till the end. she still rejected my offer. i really liked her. now i learned that what happend between me and heidi was not love, its just a pass time for her, and i was the 1 who got played. She just makes up some bull-shit saying how i made a huge impact on her life... I am srry, but if i did make a huge impact on her life, she wouldnt dumpe me for chris, in the first place, she wouldnt go off to her friends telling how clingy i am, she would tell me the honest truth, Raj, made a huge impace on my life, he created a better future for me, its becasue of him, why i will be earning millions, its becasue of him why i got a job offer from the financial company which is ranked number 2 in north america, and 4th all around the world, and yess i am talking about the AEGON Group, Raj is now my best friend now, i look up to him... anyways back to my point  in the end i got fucked. well there is nothing i can do,  she has to learn this lesson in life on her own...i am not gonnna bother anymore. i did my part. its her loss. she dosent know what she will be loosing. i went to sauble beach today, it was really relaxing. being away from the city. after on the ride home, i was thinking, and i realized that i dont need to take shit from heidi, i am not gonna be some toy. there are better girls out there... girls who actually need a nice, respectful, good lookin guy like me. girls who need a serious and comitted guy. even though i will be going through the tunnel alone, i know eventually there will be some1 who will cut me off and excpet me to catch up, so we can race for the light together, if not then i know, my love will be waiting 4 me when i go through the bright white light. well i better get some sleep. really tired and have work at 6am-12.  After all... "Tommrow Is Another Day"<br>

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Wednesday - Aug. 29, 2007 - 2:09 AM - EDT - #25

hey, just wanna tell u after 1 year of waiting, i finally got in sheridan. humber was good, but too far. plus they have that stupid rule minimum 60% to pass. and not to mention that brutal 2 hour bus ride home especially in winter. i hated that the most. but now thats all over. and things will be better, especially when i have my true love by my side, heidi. today while i was driving with my buddy raj in the country side, i saw this 1 garden, it had the treese like in stright lnes and row, i had this dream, that me and heidi were playing, hide n seek. then i found her, she ran, and i chased her, and then once i caught her i gragged her into my arms, and gave her a kiss, all i can say is, that was magical. and i hope something like that happens 1 day. sometimes, i wonder if heidi feels pressured, or like upset, that i cant be with her in person, i know she really wanted sum1 close to her. this is a question, i will have to ask her tommrow, becasue i dont want heidi to feel like "take what u can get" i want her to feel like "i will have it, if i want it" i will do anything for heidi. she means alot to me. and its thanks to her, she made me realize there is such thing as true love.<br>

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Tuesday - Aug. 28, 2007 - 2:34 AM - EDT - #24

hey i got some good news. today i was working taking down, and got a call from heidi, and guess what? she asked me to take her back, and i did, i am happy to have her back. lol we can finally go for the light together. i hope no boy will interfere with me and heidi. wow even the night is beautiful here lol. last night, i though i would end up singling 7 yearsand 50 days lol, its a good song, but its about breakup. i kow its really hard for her no be able to see, as long as she can remember that patience is a vitrue, she will be fine, here is another good quote the fruit of patience is very sweet. and i knoe she can hold and wait for me. soon she will be the happiest women on earth.

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Saturday - Aug. 25, 2007 - 0:28 AM - EDT - #23

well things are over with me and heidi. she has deleted me off msn, and blocked me. was expecting it, but what can u do. well i guess, this is the end out our friendship. so the lonely walk towards the light has begun. Did i mention i burned my index finger and thumb on my right hand at work. u know the plastic wrapper, i was like why dont we turn the heat up, and so i touched the switch with full force and got burned lol. we all couldnt stop laughing, but the scars look so kool. now i am just sitting at home, with nothing to do. well i will finished off this entry by putting my email, casue i know if heidi ever needs it, its right here. sk.2088@hotmail.com

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	Thursday - Aug. 23, 2007 - 3:39 PM - EDT - #22

	'Well me and heidi are talking again. the conversation went good last night. i just finished making the video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ClcCXLNoZ lE , maybe it might make her realize, how serious i am about her. idk whats gonna happen. i wish we can go towards the light together, i don't wanna walk alone. and if i do end up walking alone, then u might think that i wont make it on my own. but ur wrong. casue now i will be stronger than yesterday, and it will be nothing but my way, and my loneliness wont kill me anymore. cause killing me would make me stronger. No matter how much that dark tunnel, with hit me, sadness, loneliness, and heart break