I put way too much effort in to things that never even get credited. Most of my work has so much value but others can’t see it. No one knows what I have to go through to achieve something. I spend a lot of time not to make it perfect but to make it worth it. I am not a lazy person, and my hard work has a lot of effort in it.

             What I am trying to say is that I have done so much for others that they don’t know about. And sometimes I just never get a chance to let them know. I am not trying to look good or anything but there are so many things that never even gone out to the world. I write letters and paint pictures for people that never receive them. But I had not given up yet. It is just very hard to stay focused.

             I know that I can be anything, but I also want others to know that about me. It will inspire me and make me happy. All I am right now is a worthless guy who never made it work. As if I don’t deserve anything. I don’t know what else to do. I need help. But If I ask for it, I will lose more than I have now.

Agony:

• Being successful is failing.
• A smile costs tears of blood.
• A laugh is approaching death.
• Having a good day means giving life away.
• Sweet words are misunderstanding.
• Light creates shadows.
• The end has just begun.