Waking up early in the morning has never felt so good. When everyone is still asleep I am the head of the house. I get some food and coffee ready. There is no one to bother me. I clean my body and get ready slowly. I am not in a rush anywhere. I feel so warm taking my time. I am concentrating. I think about people I care about. My friends, family, and coworkers. They are all here in my heart. I felt so lonely yesterday, but now I feel close to everyone.

          Waiting for my iron to heat up. Listening to music. Searching the web. Imagining happy moments. There is so much out there. I wish I could be myself around people. I talk out loud to myself in the car. I sing out loud to the radio. I travel and discover many exciting and interesting objects. If all of us could be a little more careful and understand each other, there would not be miseries. Anything is possible. Our minds make our life real.

          It has not been too long, but my life had extremely changed. Ever since I dropped seeing my doctor I have been a different person. I was so careful for my health. I guess I was worried because I was so ill. But I wasn’t going to let anything stop me. I had already believed I would become disabled for the rest of my life. But something changed. I took control and began to concentrate. My mind was so strong to all this pressure. I did everything I could against what the doctors told me to do. I was more comfortable with my body than ever before. Going on roller coasters,  swimming, running. I didn’t take it slow. I was out for adventure. I began to enjoy myself. Drink coffee when I want to with out worrying to have a stroke. I began to smoke and didn’t take my health so cautiously. The best part of this is that I am fine. I don’t feel the pain I used to. I don’t take any pills anymore to help me breath.

          Everything happened for a good reason. Being so weak help me discover my mistakes. I realize many flaws about me. I don’t have to that anymore. When I laid in bed and could not move, I wanted to be like everyone else. I wanted to live again. I didn’t want to have anyone take care of me till I die. I am a person that wants to take care for myself. There was no one I could trust and count on if I had to have a surgery be dependent on someone for months. That is the reason I didn’t talk about myself.

          I want to be brighter. I had been so dull lately. I had already lost my job for being hypnotized. I was not thinking about myself and others. My mind was lost. There is so much I can do. I saw the sun rise.