I have become everything I’ve always hated. I can no longer trust myself. I have no morals, nothing. It does not feel wrong anymore. I am not looking up to anything. I have become a complete dork. I said it was wrong, but now I don’t feel it. You say it is wrong and I can’t understand it.

              My head, the thoughts that run through it. I must be possessed. I am full of darkness. I used to think of my self as a spark of light, but I am that black hole inside of it. I don’t hold that same value. I am not the same person.

             The best I can do is stay away. From all the little things that I make worse. I don’t want to hurt anyone. And the best way to protect them is to go away. It is me who causes all these problems. I can’t go through. I have to hide. It’s for the best.