hey online journal, sorry it's been so long since i have written but nothing much has happened. but this week i really messed things up and made some mistakes. i messed up with a certain female in my life. so i think that i ruined my chance with her. we were suppose to spend time with each other durin thanksgiving break some time and when i got the chance i kind of blown her off and never saw her. now i have to wait until christmas break. and i haven't even called her to see how she is doing seen then and i feel bad about it. but we have always been friends so i don't really know how to approach the whole thing. i guess it's because i have always bottled in my emotions and i don't know how to show them and i hate that about me. any advice from anyonewould be helpful.
also this past week sucked because i love to play basketball and my rec league team suffered a hard first lost. and it really sucks to lose. this loss really sucked because we had a seven point lead with about a minute left and we blew it and lost by threein overtime. but my team is good and we will bounce back and come out firing next week.

well this is my first entry and i don't know really what to say, but there are a few things that i have to get off of my chest. first is that i don't know how much longer i can live with my current roommates. i don't know why but they just really drive me crazy. i mean they are so selfish it isn't even funny, if it don't benefit them then they won't do it. also they think they are better then everyone else. another thing that makes me mad is that they knew that i didn't have a car at the moment when we all agreed to be roommates and they decide on a place three miles from campus and they are still not willing to gave me a ride so i have to ride my bike. i could go one for a lot more but i'll save some since this is my first entry.