hey online journal, sorry it's been so long since i have written but nothing much has happened. but this week i really messed things up and made some mistakes. i messed up with a certain female in my life. so i think that i ruined my chance with her. we were suppose to spend time with each other durin thanksgiving break some time and when i got the chance i kind of blown her off and never saw her. now i have to wait until christmas break. and i haven't even called her to see how she is doing seen then and i feel bad about it. but we have always been friends so i don't really know how to approach the whole thing. i guess it's because i have always bottled in my emotions and i don't know how to show them and i hate that about me. any advice from anyonewould be helpful.
also this past week sucked because i love to play basketball and my rec league team suffered a hard first lost. and it really sucks to lose. this loss really sucked because we had a seven point lead with about a minute left and we blew it and lost by threein overtime. but my team is good and we will bounce back and come out firing next week.