So it may not be to some people but to me it is..my life is falling apart. My parents for 21+ yrs are getting a divorce..my dad filed and told me yesterday... i dont kno what to do...once i found out of course i cried, we talked he explained him self.. which sad thing is not just me but both my brother and i agree with my dad.

we both love our mother but she is nothing but money..money this u owe me wheres my money where my money all the time. she charged my dad interest when he borrowed money from her...who in thier right mind charges thier husband interest..

UGH!!!! i love my mom of course and i have to be here for her. but its hard..its hard to sit at home and think my dads not coming home tonight..it hurts i kno its not his fault and i am not made at him one bit but...i am a major daddys girl...

just wanted to get a lil off my chest now..there will be more.....

Hey...sorry i havent writen in a while...busy n didnt really have a lot to say till now because.....

i got a call from the ex...yup he called really didnt think he would...i changed my number to kinda get rid of hime but after i changed it i felt  bad...i missed hearin his voice, him callin me all the time, but i was afrais he wasnt coming back...well i told him that n he said he promised...he didnt tho....i was cryin and everything....he wanted an exuce from me for why i changed my number....so i told him...i had nothin n i didnt i sent him everything i had....every 2wks i would send him money from my paycheck n it killed me....i miss him and i dont know why...like i told him theres something about him that cant get away from...i dont know what to do w/him...i dont know if he'll call me again or anything......i miss him sooo much in all the calls

yea its freakn 125 am and i am awake...yea i was freakin aslp not anymore...my friend who is consistantly awake till 3-4 am was talkin on her damn cell phone and still on my laptop. dose she not have respect for me and my shit....damn i woke up grabed my blanket pillow n cell n went in to the other room....i went in the thinkin shit i should have to LEAVE MY ROOM by all means...it my room paint red for a reason....i have get pretty angry...well i then got up came back in n she asked if i was okay...helllll no im not ok  this has yto stop and to stop now...all hour of being awake slping till 1230 and doing it all over again...NAVY life aint like that hun u need to start learnin.. everyone keeps tell her she needs to change but it aint happenin...soo imma do my way ill do it w/out her if she cant help her self n really doesnt seem like her wants my help so im done...AHHHHHHHHHH crazy freakin night...im tired and hell still but im don know if i can go back to slp....

OK so 2wks ago a friend moved in to my house...she moved from haivn an apartment  to livin wit me n my parents....i feel soooo bad.. n she knows that....then another thing is that i have obc and bp web sites....once i told her bout them she gets them n is gettin blown up like crazy makin me feel ugly....she is pretty but she really in to her self to...so when she knows she's lookin good she's like damn i look good and well take pics like crazy of her self...for example...last sat night we BOTH were look freakin amazing she used my camara n all the pic on there were of her...only 3 of me...grrr she a good freind n shit n were goin in to the navy that y she moved in...to support eachother.....grrrrrrr im just soo fustreated n w/ she being a lil consided is not helping....damn damn damn i just know what to do....everyone who i have to talk to about this n told them how i feel are like ur cute too blah blah blah...well i must not but that bomb.....ok soo now im dont venting ...pls let me kno what u think...if im stupid for think like this or what....

~Dianna~