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April 12, 2008 - Saturday, 0:00 AM EST 
 

Inward focus

 
 

So i realized today that im a bit of a pussy.   I broke up with my ex to take a chance with a new girl.  Things with the new girl go great for 3 months, then suddenly she starts to have doubts.  I freak (on the inside of course). She starts to feel 'freaked out' that things are moving too fast, and that she wasnt single for very long before we started dating.  This is true, on both parts.  I told her that it was ok, kept my cool, was understanding, told her that maybe we were spending too much time together and need some space.  She got upset and asked if we were still going to hang out on the friday.  I told her to think about how she feels about our situation and to call me back later that day. She calls me back later that day saying that she likes me a lot and wants to be with me etc etc etc.  Great, at first. She hadnt been as affectionate the week prior and that night she was very affectionate at first, but didnt cuddle/say much later in the night (though i was having a guys night and came home plastered). Any i cant help but feel paranoid/insecure that this relationship isnt going to work out.  I found a girl i really like, who has a lot of admirable qualities, and is attractive.  I think of myself as an attractive, intelligent, charming guy with many qualities also, however, if this girl rejects me I will start deny those positive qualities of myself.  For that, i am worried. Hopefully i am worried for nothing, but, if not, hopefully i can find the strength and confidence within myself to travel gracefully through my journey of life.

 
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    Username: dfathi
    Gender / Age: Male, 24
    Location: Canada