well things cant get much worse so i'm waiting for it to get better thats what they say when you hit rock bottom theres only one way left to go and thats back up.so here i am sitting in anticipation of what life is going to throw at me next and guess what no matter what it is i;m just going to smile and get on with it life is too short for self pity if you sit round feeling sorry for your self then one day you will drownd in and i'm too good a swimmer for that they say these things are sent to try us well they definatley are very trying