hope u can see this.....^^

but maybe wun~

coz u dun even know tat i register the account of this right?

just saw ur journal.......

only 4 days== i din online for four days..........and yet u write journal everyday==

when i online u dun write, when dun i online u write==

you write......

""Memorable time do exist...lecturing time comes together...

and dat sucks lot...==

althought u said dat i m special....

but....i feel i hav no difference with others..

mayb....i really am as normal as others...

wad do i actually hav.....

money...none....

look....zero.....

results....rubbish....

gud frens...less...

i cant afford to lose u guys anymore...

i'm not qualified to....

accept the realitly....

alvin....u r a normal person...

(17/4/2008)

emotions can b replaced by another.....

hope it will b a better 1.....

when u r happy, i'm..""

feel a bit sad.......and also angry of my self......

i dunno that i give u such a feelings........maybe i am a jurk.......a bad friend so that i cant give u enough care and love.........

i dunno i give u such a bad bad bad feelings..........to let u feel that u r not special.......

sorry about tat.........but u r really special for me.........

u r my friend.........not becoz of money nor look........is becoz u.......

u is u.......no matter u r pour or ugly..........u r still u........the one who treat me with his heart and care........the one who i treat him as the most special friend that i have never had............

For now, without u i really dunno how am i gonna to study in this class........with all the fake faces.......

and without u.......i dun even find the meaning of staying there............

i have lose everything......but u will never be the one......right?

u ask me why am i crying tat time........

yong wei tell u tat i cry becoz i listen to the song "zui jin" and i feel touch and tears just drop like tat.........

but the truth is the things i am thinking..........that song is only a wood for the fire........

actually...........tat time we are discussing about u.......about the future without u.........about the time u r going to leave us........

i really cant accept ur leaving..........but  tat is a fact.........u r going to USA and i am going to stay here.......staying in this place without u..........

i really scare to lose u..........

i am affraid that ur feelings is just like the song.........

dunno y..........

even now when i am thinking about ur leaving........tears will drop none stop..........

你最近不说话 怎么了 为什么 是不是有什么事让你不快乐 听说你最近很孤单 有点乱有点慌 可是我却不能够在你的身旁 你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的 我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭 你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束 不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路 爱 我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的 我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭 你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束 不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路

""A simple way lead a simple life...

dat's wat i always dreamed of...

but reality is reality....life is meant to be complicated....

at least i still hav u....u will noe who r u when u read dis....

but who am i?? to u...to every1....or even..myself.....

i hope sum1 will tell me...i'll b waitin....

a happy day begins with a simple smile....

^^readers....blogers....hav a nice day...

(18/4/2008)

I am Alvin Siow....""

i am so sorry........tat i cant help u.........

feel tat i am useless......

i am such a bitch......cant even give u anything besides of that useless meaningless little of cares........and yet keep bodering u with my unimportant lauzy problem..........

sorry.........very sorry.........

but wat should i do? i have no ideal.........

if only u can tell me..........