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January 30, 2007 - Tuesday, 1:03 PM EDT 
  How come everyone around me seems to not believe in what i do. My grades are getting worse, basketball is the only thing that makes me happy, but since my grades are about to go down the drain i cant play for several weeks. My parents are always arguing over stupid things, ususally over the difference in parenting. My step mom has a son and im the other child which is the only child of my mom and dad. My mom is living in Ellswoth wich i can say is alot better then Cali., but she still feels so far away. I have some big decicions to make about wether or not i want to go and live with my mom again... which would make this my third time running back or if i should be like everyone else who has problems at there homes, meaing deal with it?! I just wish i could run away to a place where everyone is always happy and gives good advice and never shuts you down/out... i guess to a place where you feel wanted.? My mom says that i can come and live with her, but i have to tell her before her essingment is up.. which is in April and it's know the end of January. If i say that i DO want to come and live with her then she will take an assignment outside of maine like Alaska, which is away from everyone. Then she will try to take a staff possition somewhere.. prob. bangor. either i can stay at the school i am in, which everyone here likes to copy everyone and talk about everyone behind there backs! small school in other words. or i can go to bangor school which i already have and that school is really big, overly big, but im sure i could get use to it. plus i have friends at this school in searsport and a boyfriend not to mention. My grandmother died yesterday and my dad is on my back about every little thing. i get to school today and people are saying that im trying to steal someone away from there boyfriend, which there boyfriend is saying that we were cuddeling the night before, i wouldnt and i didnt, my best friend was even there and she wouldnt have allowed it because i have a boyfriend already that i love and wouldnt want to loose. My boyfriend is the kind of guy where he would beat anyone up for saying something like they did. He is threating to beat him up and i dont want him too because that would mean that he would get almost 5 days out of school.. i just hope he doesnt get himself into anymore trouble... my best friend is always there for me but sometimes i wish she could just act like her OWN person and not try to follow everyone else. set her own trends,saying,music, ect... it just seems like she is all rapped up in a certain guy and sometimes doesnt even give me the light of day. I mean dont get me wronge were attached at the hick, but anytime i go over to hang out with her lately she's always on the phone with him.. i really dont know.. Well i guess this is enough for today.. i mean i can always come to this and write my feelings out.. i feel a little better, i just wish someone who actually felt what i was feeling could give me some advice! i hope the rest of my highschool years go better then this one right know! ._.Chelsea Lynn._.  
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    Username: chelsealynn15
    Gender / Age: Female, 18
    Location: USA - Maine
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    About Me:

    The names Chelsea, im 15 and i am very energetic! you wanna get to know me.. talk away, i love new people!
    Interests:

    I love to play Basketball and no i dont really like to play soccer, i guess it's because i dont understand the game?! I hate to read anything, but i love to draw! Dancing helps me take away some stress most of the time!
    Favorite Music:

    I love pop-rock, or older stuff that my parents listen too like ACDC, AEROSMITH!
    Favorite Movies:

    I love the grinch who stole christmas.
    Favorite Television:

    well i dont have a favorite television, but i do have a favorite television SHOW! i would have to say it's that 70's show, csi, and the class
    Favorite Books:

    i dont like to read... : /
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