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Feb 2012
11:32 AM PDT

moments of anxiety

Rob has gone to court today for Family issues, custody and child support.

I was okay earlier, but now I am stressed out.
He was asked by the judge if there was any problems with picking up Nakota, and tehre was, but he said no! So now I am thinking that he wants to be nice to her because he wants her to take him back, and Im thinking sooner then later I hope.
Not because I don't love him, because I can deal with it sooner and get on with my life.

So much is going on in my head, and more will come, I need to try stop the flow.
It is PTSD, and I am in self preservation mode, It is a trigger, that he has to see Corrine and he has gone back to her before and will go back again, or she will cause me grief.

fuck

But he isn't going back, but I just don't trust him, or I don't trust myself on my thoughts, I am out of control.

I need to stop, not sure how yet.

Tags: ptsd

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