Malfunction Ventation....

Everything eventually falls into place

but it always ends up falling out of place.


i'm happy.

theres nothing really wrong with my life.

i love it.

but theres people trying to ruin that.

people that know me from last year
that don't know that i've changed.

and fuck you if you dont think people change.

i wanted to and i did.

i just happened to ruin my rep in the mean while.

and now to them...
i'm a cheater.

a bad friend.

a bad girlfriend.

a lier
a user.

a whore
a slut
fuck.

i don't even know.

they don't know me.

so i guess it doesn't really bother me.

but hes starting to believe them.

what the fuck is their problem.

i messed up.

and thats going to be hung over my head forever?
i changed.

i'm not the same girl i was last year.

and if you don't know that.

then your obviously one of the people i stopped talking to
i let go of a lot of friends last year.

i pushed them away.

but they were just dragging me down.

i'm sorry if i hurt you.

but don't try to hurt me back.

wat kind of revenge do you want.

those who know me even a little know my weaknesses.

and now they're using it against me.

stop trying to get me.

what good is it to you if i'm miserable?
what do you have against me?
wat exactly did i do to you?
i'm sorry.

but fuck you.

i'm about to break.

this is exactly why what happened last year happened.

i'm done with all this bullshit drama.

and i'm done with anyone that doesn't know me and still talks shit.

fuck you.

what makes me so fucking important that you have to talk shit about me behind my back. what is it about me that you have to go telling people not to be my friend. are you that inmature that you think i'm just that little slut that doesn't take peoples emotions into consideration. what makes me so much better than you that you want to try to ruin my life as much as possible. watch me fall, watch me suffer. what the fuck did i ever do to you? You can go ahead and talk your shit. it doesn't bother me, but when your shit talking ends up ruining a relationship i have with one of my friends or boyfriend is when we have a problem. but i guess thats what you want right? what do you want that i have??? how am i better than you. i really want to know. i'm sorry you hate me. but i guess i can't do anything about that can i. i could really care less. i am who i am. and if you don't like that...then keep your hate to yourself and keep my boyfriend and friends out of it. i've heard all the rumors about me. i've heard the people talk about me right behing my back. and i'm sick of it. fuck you and fuck anyone else that is trying to bring me down. i am who i am. and theres nothing you can do about it. keep talking shit and you'll see what will happen. i'm not the girl i was last year...fuck you.