Brunette Mess's Journal

Dec 2006
7:25 PM EST

Ok, so this is my first day on my new "abstinence plan". I am abstaining from all alcohol, drugs (which I have never done before), and men. I recently got totally trashed at my birthday party this weekend and made one too many errors in judgement. I don't like this feeling of being embarrassed of what I did the night before. So I am giving it all up, for a whole year. The thing that makes me mad is that everyone thinks I can't do this, which I know in my heart I can. I know I can, but people just laugh and say "yeah right". I think I will gain alot of strength that I never knew I had by doing this. I don't need alcohol to have a good time and I definitely don't need a man in my life to feel complete. I don't like the person I have become, so I am doing something to change it. Let me just clear up that I am not a whore, I'm just sick of worrying about finding a boyfriend (cause it seems that everyone around me has a significant other) and I am not an alcoholic, I just sometime don't know when to stop. So this is my decleration of abstinence!! Day 1 had been good, only 365 more :)
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  • Username: Brunette Mess
  • Gender / Age: Female, 34
  • Location: USA - Texas
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    About Me: I am just a normal college student who is just trying to enjoy life and is making a few mistakes along the way.

    Interests: Roadtrips, reading, sports (college football), beading, thrift store shopping, HOMER the dog, coffee shops, College Game Day, good music, snowboarding,, hanging with the siblings, being a STARS fan (love it!) and making the long drive home to TEXAS.