Brunette Mess's Journal

Jan 2007
7:24 PM EST

I am currently snowed in my house and I have been since Friday moring. With nothing to do and nowhere to go, I have alot of time to think. It seems like everyone around me is so sure of themselves and knows exactly what they want. I, on the other hand, have no clue who I am or what I want out of this life. I feel so alone and I don't think anyone out there feels the way I do. I wake up, go to school, come home, go to bed, and start it all over. I am in some sort of a rut. And as much as I hate to admit it, I am lonely. God, the word 'lonely' is like a four letter word in my mind. A few months ago I vowed to give up boys, but now I would give anything for the slighest reaction from a boy. God, I hate myself for saying this, but I feel like such an outcast from society because I am single, and not even close to a relationship. I am in college and it is so much pressure because according to society, you find your soul mate in college....Talk about pressure! If I don't love myself, then how can I love someone else? It's like you dream about the life you want instead of going out in the world and living it. Gosh,I need to get out of this town.....
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  • Username: Brunette Mess
  • Gender / Age: Female, 34
  • Location: USA - Texas
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    About Me: I am just a normal college student who is just trying to enjoy life and is making a few mistakes along the way.

    Interests: Roadtrips, reading, sports (college football), beading, thrift store shopping, HOMER the dog, coffee shops, College Game Day, good music, snowboarding,, hanging with the siblings, being a STARS fan (love it!) and making the long drive home to TEXAS.