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Wednesday - Jun. 13, 2007 - 10:30 PM - EDT - #8

NOMOREEEE SCHOOL!!!!!! omfg i am so happy. All this year i was waiting for this day...I didnt hug John he was hugging his "friend" thats name always flies away from my mind. I am going to the Public pool tomorrow and swim. Chris was flirting with me

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Tuesday - Jun. 12, 2007 - 9:27 PM - EDT - #7

Ok i think im freaked out know the sadness turned into fear and my dreams turned into....a black space with no dream. My Mom lied to me and said she was fine when she wasnt and im hurt. 2 priests came to my house with my moms friend Giselle. My mom is throwing up right now and i hate my life. It's this moment that i remember my dad rocking me to sleep and singing me a spanish lullaby and telling me that i will be blessed and have a great life. I regret what he said. my life stinks i dont have a wonderful life like all the Waverly girls or the wannabes, i dont get clothes everyday and go on shopping sprees. It's only once in a while i do maybe every 4 months? maybe less?? None understands how scared i am to open my arms and say oh my life's great and i will be this or that. I miss my old life sitting with my dad and my family. My grandma playing catch with me when i was 5 or 2, my dad giving me presents on christmas, and my dad making me laugh when i was sad. It's one of these moments when you want to goon a time machine to go back in time and feel and laugh in the moments i've had with my dad. My Dad was the one that connected us even though he screwed up with my mom. I sometimes tell myself why do i keep living?? why do i keep holding on?? what am i holding on?? I wannago back andfeel my dad kissing me and hugging me. Making me feel spoiled without giving me everything i want. I was happy and every moment of that life....he made it great. I have tears down my eyes because what had happened i hate everything............................=[ bittersweet<3 goodnight! =]

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Tuesday - Jun. 12, 2007 - 3:54 PM - EDT - #6

Hey Sup? Today was cool i had 2 finals 3rd period and 10th. My hair looked awesome even though my hair is major curly. And...My mom got better the anziety didnt all go away but her doctor got her major workin pills. Im so happy!!=] Also my dad gained some pounds back and his health is almost there.I think my prayers actually worked thank you god!<33 I went to sleep last night with the sound of thunder and rain pouring at 11:15 not 2 shabby right??? I watched the movie She's The Man the 17th time in my life lol. Ummmmmmmm i had no eye contact with my love we just talked about the final. Tomorrow is last day of school and he hasnt hugged or kissed me. Tomorrow im gonna march up to him and hug him so passionatly all his friends will feel pleasure. Wake up John i wanted to tell you that im ready.. im ready to fall into your arms.

BITTER SWEET<3

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Friday - Jun. 8, 2007 - 3:17 PM - EDT - #5

sometimes you can be so wrong about a person......especially if they'ree your best friend. The 1st year you meet your bffaeae never apart, the next year still the same, the next year not as close but close,the next year a little talkk a little bff time, and the next year you barely talk and the more you fight. Nikki said we were going to the public pool today and i canceled my plans and to go with her and she tells me at the end of school ummm maybe later today see ya. Then i see her passing by in Jennifer's car and she's goign to the public pool with them im just so upset and i just idk if i can suffer anymore it just hurts me to see that our relationship is going to the dirt and staying there.. I gotta go and rest because i didnt really have a good sleep last night ttyl.

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Wednesday - Jun. 6, 2007 - 3:20 PM - EDT - #4

Today was cool everybody liked my outfit today=\ thats kinda scary people like lined jeans and a striped shirt they were all over me. Anyways i got a 98 on my test and Breanna N. the evilest person in the world and im the only one who can fight her and eventually win she was jealous she got a 56. So.. im not gonna bore you bloggers so lets get real; Nikki wasnt half bad she was O.K we're doing waveboards tomorrow it's like a wavyyy skateboardd. umm.. idk what to say today was an ok day finally lol. My computer had another break down yesterday so i wouldve wrote more yesterday but my computer died. Caitlin my other friend isnt friends with Taylor but they act like there best friends when there not i dont get it. They got in a extreme fight today it was sickkk LOL; finals are coming up and there starting Tuesday boooooooooo. OMG im goign to Las Vegas in 2 more months AWESOMEE!! i have to get earn 100 more dollars for a digital camera because i do lawn mowing for 40 bucks every week i started last week and the camera's like 290 or 218 dolllars?? im sorry to cut it short and this wasnt really interesting buttttt.... i have to go finish up my essay for English PEACEEE outtttt<3 BITTERSWEET<333

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Tuesday - Jun. 5, 2007 - 3:44 PM - EDT - #3

HEY!!!! sorry i havent talked much on here it's because my mom's friend had to take this virus thing of my computer. So it kinda sucked lol well let's get to my famous writings. Today was cool and so was school; Finals are coming up and tomorrow is my band final!!=[. Im gonna have to learn my G and Bflat scale. So right now your thinking a band final? are you crazy? yea i know im so pissed.
Well Anyways on my previous weekend i was over my friend Nikki's house and Sunday she totally killed me because she gave me an attitude as soon and she woke up...I mean did she have a bad dream because then... i would've understood. But what she did was not cool. Ok First we went outside and we went on her trampoline with her cousins then as soon as they went off she went off with them because she was "Tired" and she got 9 hours of sleep i went to bed at 3 in the morning she fell asleep at 12 so i had 3 more hours on her computer. Ok let's get to what i was saying so.. im by myself on the trampoline and she's laughing and having fun. I forgot that today was Sunday and i had to go home and take my Passport photo again because mine was expired.
I said bye i have to go she didnt answer and im sure i said at normal voice so she could hear me because there was comlplete silence when i said that and so i just put my shoes on and left. 5 minutes later she hadnt noticed i went inside and i was right in front of her thats sad..
She finally came to her room and passed me without saying one word i asked how do you open your charger thing on your phone and she tells me "ummmmm open it?" and i tried opening it in every way and she didnt tell me there was a button to open it i was pissed and today i just dont wanna talk about her because she just killed me. I was so mad at her today and it's interesting that shes exhausted when shes with me but then happy and energetic when shes with someone else? can you explain that??
I suffer with my family and she doesnt give a $h1t ! thats what hurts me the most since we were in Middle School she changed into a meanie. She was different you know because she helped me when i suffered she defended me in front of people who didnt understand. I might sound like a complete loser but im actually one of those people who everybody comes to for help cause i know how they feel. Im funny and nice bashful and energetic and you need to see me when i have a sugarrush it's hilarious.
I gotta go and finish my math=[ Peacee outttt

BITTERSWEET<3

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Thursday - May 31, 2007 - 9:04 PM - EDT - #2

Well like i said i was gonna go im not i found my mom's laptop so i decided to bring it over to my sister's bed and type. This journal thing helps me so much. I've been through so much and i ask myself why i keep holding on? Why dont i give up? But i cant my mind understands what my heart doesnt want to. I have to help everyone in my family i act like im ok but inside im sick of crying sooner or later im gonna run out of tears. My mom is sick with soemthing called anxziety and my sister just has her attitude problems. I miss my dad he always helped us and he always made me feel safe and that he will always be there cheering me on. The baby finally fell asleep and im finally free to type without a baby trying to type 538614890161 gdfbg. That kinda annoys me. My dad left us when i was 5 or7 i dont remember because it's been a long long time. Im so sad and broken and none understands not even my closest friends. i tell myself people who lost everything pretend they didnt and i who have lost nothing feel like im gonna burst into zillion pieces. Thank god i dont let out the pain in cutting and sometimes i have to think b4 i start to think i should but i barely think of that. Anyways i've been having a tired\exhaustion\depressed\happy day. I just dont know whar i should do anymore. Before i die of Thurst im gonna go get a drink PEACEE
have a good night!! SWEET DREAMS OHH SWEET DREAMS FOR ILL SEE YOU IN THE MORNING SWEET DREAMSS OHHHHHHHHHHHH SWEET DREAMS DONT LET THE BED BUGS BITE.

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Thursday - May 31, 2007 - 8:49 PM - EDT - #1

Hey All you bloggers it's me Beauty. Today was a normal day except i found out that one of my bffl was talking behind my back and thats the only thing i dispise in the whole world. it's not fair im the only one in that school that doesnt talk behind peeps backs. Besides, she talked behind my back because im friends with everybody. I mean middle school is where people hate you for the stupidest reasons. I never knew people can be so evil. I mean im a very social person i cant help it.....im a chatterbox. I talk about random things at random times and i think people should do the same and not stay quiet. Being quiet is showing that your not a social person. I was writing a song about how a girl cant stand being her crush's second choice and it reminds me of who i like John. I was talkign to him and when i see his face sometimes i think Cupid has struck me [({again})]. He's so ADORABLE i luvv him!!! The whole day was fine. My Aunt got surgery because she has an ''egg'' in her stomache it's not a baby though. I've been babysitting since 3:00 and it's 8:50. I have to go watch my favorite show but b4 i go i want to tell you all i will be glad to be your friends.

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