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Thursday - Oct. 9, 2008
- 7:39 AM - EST
- #8
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Do I ever pretend to be something I'm not? If I do, why am I doing it? I sure do. I pretend I am happy all the time, so the pain will not be seen, that I am in. I hide my pain and heartache from everyone else, only fooling myself. No one knows how it really feels inside, some would say they do, but they don't. I hide my pain to make everyone else happy. You know if you are down, the people around you are down, so I figure if there is a chance that for a few hours a day, I can be ok and maybe feel good inside, until I go home alone and the pain comes again. No one knows what it is like behind these blue eyes.... Have a nice day
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Saturday - Aug. 30, 2008
- 1:31 PM - EST
- #7
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What's the single most important thing you could do to improve the quality of your life this year? Well I guess I could make myself happy again, but I dont know how to start I guess. Happiness is a cure for anything or so Im told. What about meeting someone who will like me for who I am, not the things that I do, and love me just the same honestly without question or doubt..I dont think he exist out there anywhere..
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Friday - Aug. 8, 2008
- 11:02 AM - EST
- #5
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Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it: More like feeling gratitude and expressing it is...like giving them the gift and they not accepting it.... Guess I should go make someone angry today so that I can destroy them later on...
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Monday - Aug. 4, 2008
- 8:35 AM - EST
- #4
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The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams....... Well I do believe in the beauty of dreams...no matter what they do mean...My dream last nite...I met a tall good-looking new guy...I guess the beauty of that was that maybe someday I will find someone who will love me for who I am, not what I do in life... FYI: Im going thru a tough situation right now....My husbands wants a divorce, after 15 yrs...He says he is not happy with me and that we have nothing in common and that he doesnt love me anymore>>How can a person stay with someone that friggin' long and have nothing in common? and Not care an ounce about them?...Im in alot of pain right now, but I know in time it will go away...I didnt ever dream he would do this to me...That just goes to show that you never know someone like you think you do...I was very good to my husband...I did my house duties..I worked my full-time job, all the while he sat home and worked here and there...I did almost everything for him and this is how I get re-payed....It sucks, let me tell you..it really does...A friend told me.."that the better you are to someone, that's the more they hurt you"...I believe that...There are all these feelings that I have and I really can't put into words...If someone has ever been thru a situation like this, then they might know where I am coming from....... Aww well thanks for listening to me ramble on today....Have a good day:)
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Sunday - Aug. 3, 2008
- 8:36 PM - EST
- #3
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Answer your critics with silence and indifference. It works better, I assure you, than anger and argument. . . . Well I guess so...anger does not get us anywhere I guess..Only makes things harder..but what can a person do when all they feel is anger...what are they suppose to do about it....Yeah you can sit in silence, but that does not solve anything either...I guess the only thing left for us to do is "Blog" about it....
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| Gender / Age: Female, 33 |
| Location: USA - Virginia |
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BECTASY's Interests: |
About Me:
I am a quiet person...Sumtimes shy...I am friendly tho..I can act crazy like the rest of them...I like to get out & have fun...and do fun things.
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Interests:
Dreams...& their meanings...Interpretations...Games...Computers...Outdoors...The Beach...
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Favorite Music:
3 Doors Down, Nickleback, Green Day, AC/DC, Metallica, Pantera, Kenny Chesney, Sara Evans, George Strait, Trace Adkins, Dierks Bentley, Sugarland, those are just a few. I like way many more. Just dont like rap or hip-hop at all!
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Favorite Movies:
3 Days, Where the heart is, Sweet home Alabama, Just like heaven, Fast N Furious (1&2), Fire down Below, City of Angels, Into the Blue, The Devils'Advocate, and more..Im not into like sci-fi movies or alien things like that...
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Favorite Television:
Ghost Hunters, A Haunting,Reba, Friends, Everybody Luvs Raymond, Still Standing, Frasier,Secret Life of American Teenager, Armywives,...etc.
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Favorite Books:
I dont read books like I used too..I feel like I dont have the time anymore..It has been a few years since I have read a good book...I do glance thru magazines here and there...
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